I think about him a lot now. I don't dread seeing him due to wondering how I will react. I figured...if I keep avoiding him, it won't help him feel things for me. I know he cares for me...but I'm not his favorite person. I want to be somebody's favorite person. One person's favorite person. I want somebody to see everyday, and run up to and hug him...him hugging me back. I want somebody that will lean down and whisper those three words into my ear. I want somebody who is worth crying over, but won't make me cry. I want somebody who is poetic, and who shares the same interests as me. I want somebody to be the color in my world, even if I was colorblind.
Special things that happened today:
-Today on my way home with my mom, we were listening to Michael Buble and when I went out to check the mail we started to dance in the street. With the music really loud. It was one of those special mother daughter moments.
-I bought cookie dough set aside for eating without cookie making.
-We are doing a play in front of the whole school, and I'm hoping I'm getting the lead role.
-I want to sing.
-Kacey and Alex seemed ok today...and they're both still alive. But it pained me to see a picture from homecoming with them together. *sad*
-I might be able to start wearing make up. Who knows...O_O
That's about it. I can't wait to see Josh tommarow. I want to talk to him. Maybe if he gets to know me better, he will want to be with me. All I can do it hope. That's all I have to say at the moment. It was nice being able to write a more positive journal entree.
-Maggie-
