I wasn't able to save this relationship between Kacey and Alex. But maybe it's for the better. I don't know what to say, so I guess I'm just going to have talk about other things. Deeper, irrevalent things I've been thinking about lately. There's the fact that the world spins on, and all I do is get lost in thought, simple things turning into complicated theories on the world's matter and relavence. It's hard to believe I'm just in eighth grade. I don't think I'm extremely smart, but I have to say I'm ahead of my generation. All my friends are...except for Luke. I mean...Alex even has his smart moments. Kacey is way smarter than people give her credit for. She's really down to Earth...and she knows what she's talking about. I've learning to trust her and pay attention to what she says. She always ends up being right. I've been observing teacher's behavoirs and seperate thoughts, and really...that's what makes a good teacher. Some teachers, such as Mrs. Norwood...are just in it for the money and to...share her small love of science. She doesn't actually do a lot of seperate analyzing of the world around her. On the other hand, M(r)s. Runnels, knows exactly what she's talking about and has her own view on way and this generation. Speaking of this generation, what makes us ahead of our time? Is it that we learn better at an earlier age, giving us the abilty of grasping the knowledge in order for us to succeed. Maybe it is. But I'm really only intellegent in the classroom, and writing. I wish I was deeper more of the time...but then it would deminish my sense of humor. It's already changing me. I've become to think deeper, to analyze situations at a higher level. It scares me sometimes...because I think of things that could be true, but that could put me into an institute for the mentally unstable.
I've been getting along well. I've become physically stronger. It's more of a mental state of mind than physical abilty. You have to think you're fast in order to be fast. You have to act optimistic so you can grasp what's around you and process what you are doing when playing sports and running. I recently am doing thinking that involves critical thinking, observations, and counting. I will count the steps it takes to get diagonal from the door. Thinking down to the atom of an object. Such as how glass stays together, a watch works, a light is born, sound waves. I analyze everything at times. To the point where I have to put my head down and close my eyes in order for my thinking process to take a break for a small fraction of the day. The time when I sleep...to the time I wake up, it pure bliss. I don't dream often anymore, and when I do...I forget my dream when I wake up. They aren't important anymore. It is probably a good thing I don't dream. Dreams reflect problems you have in life. I do have problems...but is it that light of a problem to where I don't dream about. I guess. I have to go take a shower now. Then to my time of resting. The hardest part is getting to sleep. The thoughts from the daily life surround me...dancing around my head like a peevish object or bug.
Sorry to get so deep...just a lot of thoughts lately. I'll just sit looking down at the cracks in my desk and think of what if, how, why, when, ect.
-Maggie-
