There are so many different things you feel at time...
A few minutes ago I was listening to "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Greenday.
When I listened to it, it made me want to cry, but not of sadness or joy... something that's hard to explain... a mix of both (sadness+joy=soy xD) But seriously, it made me wish there was someone close sitting next to me, someone I could just lay my head on their chest and cry out all the stuff I hold inside that I really shouldn't. All the feeling I hide, someone I could tell all the secrets I hide and have them still look at me the same again... I hate the feeling of holding in tears, but I haven't shed a tear for at least three months... I haven't cried for so long, I want to... but I can't.
It's strange... but it's me... and that's all I feel like writing... I hope you enjoyed it.
I have that song on repeat now... just so I can feel like this...
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Death... must be easy,
because life is hard...