so sad
life is unfair, i can say... things come and go... people come and go... feeling come and go... but evryone has to deal with it... i know am not the only one who undergo this but why amidst the crowd i feel so alone? isn't it ironic?
but i need to grow, need to deal with this situation, this feelings, even if it is hard... so hard to be mature ~_~... but i need to see, that things don't stay the same forever... same with this unwanted feelings... it won't stay forever, it will come and go...
even i put much effort to make my world a better one, reality keeps on bumping me that hey! things won't always go your way... reality is something i sometimes hate and love...ambivalent i am... i always felt this feeling of "in between" caught in the middle... like being emotional inside yet need to be stoic outside... sometimes i nearly push myself to the edge of the abyss but something like the wind keeps on blowing for me to be push back on track... the right way was never an easy way... blah... need to live my life... need to be alive... something, someone is calling me... if only i could always put a plug on my tear ducts i would, so that my face wouldn't be a falls for my tears.... i am so weak.. i just pretend to be strong... for that's how people perceive i am... but i am not.. am not.
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