Why am I complaining that he doesn't love me? I know he cares about me, or else he wouldn't of asked me to dance when he saw that I was hurt. It will develop in time. Ugh...why did I use the word develop? That sounds so scientific. Science and romance don't mix. I want him to come over. But I don't know how to ask him. It would be awkward if we were just together...alone. Well, my mom would be here. And my dad. Hmm...maybe that isn't such a good idea. BUt I want to spend time with him. I want to talk to him...at least. Maybe I'll text him. But seriously, I'm just happy that he's mine. That i have somebody that I'm not afriad to talk to. I want to tell him all my secrets and trust that he won't tease me or judge me, or think any less of me.
So I just want to be caught in the moment. I want him to smile when he sees me. Like I smile when I write about him. I like how I get lost in the love songs and my writing. Like at this very moment, I'm listening to Claire De Lune. A classical song that makes me think of him. A lot of songs make me think of him. And now I'm listening to A Kiss To BUild a Dream On. Not that I'm ready to kiss anybody, but it's a romance song. And this is a relationship. I think he needs to get that. And I would like it if he were a little less shy around me. But I'm glad he's around me. Some couples don't get to see eachother...like ever. And then...it's so sad...when you break up and you walk past eachother, not saying a word, like they were never a big part of your life.
Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll probably write another journelle entrei tonight, so be looking for that. And Matt...I love you! Even if you don't. And I hope my imperfections are perfect for you.
-Maggie-
So I just want to be caught in the moment. I want him to smile when he sees me. Like I smile when I write about him. I like how I get lost in the love songs and my writing. Like at this very moment, I'm listening to Claire De Lune. A classical song that makes me think of him. A lot of songs make me think of him. And now I'm listening to A Kiss To BUild a Dream On. Not that I'm ready to kiss anybody, but it's a romance song. And this is a relationship. I think he needs to get that. And I would like it if he were a little less shy around me. But I'm glad he's around me. Some couples don't get to see eachother...like ever. And then...it's so sad...when you break up and you walk past eachother, not saying a word, like they were never a big part of your life.
Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll probably write another journelle entrei tonight, so be looking for that. And Matt...I love you! Even if you don't. And I hope my imperfections are perfect for you.
-Maggie-
