I Hate Light.
I hate light. It ruins everything. When it's dark you get lost in the moment. Anyways, I didn't wear a dress. And Matt gave me a really big mum that was so great! I wore it for the first twenty to thirty minutes. And then I wanted to dance so I took it off. BUt I'm going to keep it forever. It has hearts on it and on it says "Matt - Maggie" on the same ribbon. I wish he would stop spending so much money on me though. I would much rather prefer his love and feelings for me. I'll tell you how it happened.
I asked to plug my iPod in for the final song, because I wanted to dedicate a song to me and Matt. So we could dance. And miraculously, I was able to put on one song, Quando Quando Quando by Michael Buble. I went up to him, and asked him to dance, and he said no and walked away. My heart pretty much collapsed at that moment. I didn't want anybody to see me cry, so I went over in the corner and sat at a table. Then this girl came up and said that some guy named Matt wanted to dance with me. I wondered if it was worth it, and wanted to stay there, but I got anyways because I thought he really loved me. And I went over to Matt...and he said, "I don't know how to dance." And I took his hands and said, "Trust me." And the placed one on my waist and put his hand in mine, and then...
The lights turned on. And the song ended.
The dance was over, and there was nothing I could do about it. And even though he put in an effort, I never got the dance I truly wanted. And will he ever love me? I was left standing there, and then the music stopped completely. And I retrieved my iPod and left. I wanted to tell him goodbye, but his ride was already there.
I want to see him again. I want to talk to him, and tell him how I feel. Tell him that I want to dance, that I want him to love me, I want to ask him questions, and stay up late on the computer and talk to him. Why can't I have that?
I know...I'm never content with what I have. But right now I only want to be perfect for him.
-Maggie-
