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what is happieness really? is a fragment of something of love or is it trully love? what is family trully mean? and what am i? what am i to become? the things i do, the things i am made to do, do i trully need to be loved?

CHAPTER 4 different
i threw the woman to the concerete floor and left her stranded, alone. i began running, i heard a voice chuckling, laughing of what i had to do but couldn't do it. it pained me to know that draven had always told us, we are who we are, you look in a mirror and you accecpt who you are.
but i, cannot.
rain poured lightly in the crescent moon, i had gotten to the point where i was in another alley, utterly alone and i slammed my body into the trashcans and brick walls hopefully feelling pain, breaking my bones, blood gashing out, mostly dying.
but there isn't one chance for that to happen because, like you, im not who you think i am.
i'm not good, not evil either, i don't know what i am.
"hoalix?"
there was draven standing above me, he took off his coat and wrapped it around me."it awfully cold,"he said calmly. i knew what i done wrong.
"i'm sorry," i choked."i am sorry because i didn't-"
"sshh,"draven said lowering his voice,"its okay, i know, we all know, look, go back home, and rest."
i nodded and slowly got up and handed draven his coat.
"i'll be home late, we will all be home late,"draven said walking away and added,"happy birthday."
i scoffed and pulled up my hood.
i began walking to the house, knowing i will hear endless screams down bellow but he is my brother...
the path home seemed farther then ever, the night seemed to go on forever.strange i thought.....
i heard this weird noise in the bushes and a dark figure emeraged out of the bushes and i got smaked hard in the face with something metal making me fall unconcious.