ahhh! gawd, i feel so old fashion! the most "technology" i use to draw is a mechanical pencil -_- looking at hps like lolirot and holydust r getting to me. they r only a few years older than me, and have gotton so far. as far as i have come in the last 3 years, its still too little. im still stuck in graphite world, with small puddles into paintworld, cool-brushpen-world(XD), origamiworld, hempworld, potteryworld, and a couple other worlds that i forgot...oh yea the thing thats like knitting and starts with a C but i cant spell. im like in panic mode, on the outside calm, but on the inside running around in circles pulling at my hair and spinning my thumb ring like crazy, saying: screw inspiration! i gotta get working! ingnore the handcramps! u dont need to stretch after leaning over ur work for hours, u can sit like that for an hour more! *giggles* actually i cant imagine myself saying that...but ya know panic is a different story. i've wasted half the summer and all i have learned is a little pottery! if i didnt have to go to that stupid camp...! *feelings of panic and anger mix together* oh...yeeea...thats really not a good combination *pushes the panic and anger aside* i have a month...then im in my senior year. i have to become determined and ambitious... O_o uh oh *gets all sulky* thats not happening netime soon... *sighs* okaz i've decided, less internet, once a week prolly. *muses to self* i'll have to get out that watercolor paper... ask the councilers if they will buy sumthing...i have those copies, old copies..scaners not working...maybe do the little comic ppl...*grins* this might get interesting
 Nepenthe Beryl · Sat Aug 11, 2007 @ 09:25pm · 0 Comments |
