Yep.
I, Rowena, the Rowena who choose not to date in high school and then entered and internship program where dating was forbidden the first year, quite possibly will be going on a date in roughly….sixteen hours!
And I don’t know how I feel about it.
Honestly, I didn’t even realize he was probably asking me on a date until after I had accepted the invite to join him at a local Battle of the Bands tonight after work. He’s got a bit of a stutter, which is fine—in person it’s absolutely cute, but over the phone, well, it made copying down directions a bit hard.
It also made something else hard: I’m not entirely sure if this is supposed to be a date, or if this is just a guy who I know likes me trying to get to spend some non-threatening time with me, away from my outgoing friends.
Okay Gaians, I’m actually on the verge of posting in the Life Issues sub-forum…I have no idea what I’ve gotten myself into.
If it’s not a date, fine, all will be well….but how am I supposed to tell? Just go by the overall feeling/vibe of the evening? Should I ask, “Hey, is this a date?”
I think it would be fine if it is a date…but that’s another can of worms, because, you see, at nineteen—it would be my first. Unless you count dinners and movies with by best guy friend in the world, Lumi (and a few of my friends try to, dang it!).
So who is this guy I’m possibly going on a date with?
I know him from my high school youth group. He’s a pretty nice fellow. He got a cell this summer, probably a good year since we’ve have regular interaction, and he used this new cell as an excuse to call my number (which he still had from giving it to his parents before a youth event he rode in my car to) and strike up a conversation. Not that we haven’t had any interaction. I’ve seen him around and talked with him whenever we sighted one another, but I mean, it isn’t like he was one of the guys that I parked in the living room with on Wednesday nights to feed our LOST addictions. Just a guy I knew from youth group who I thought was pretty neat.
Actually, my long time friends have heard of him before. I found this in a journal post from December of 2005.
Quote:
“I know that my not dating has been my decision, and that God is totally on board with what I’m thinking. I really am waiting for His divine intervention in my romantic life.
But I’m afraid of it, a little. Especially now. A guy I know casually is definitely interested in me, and I honestly like him more every time I talk to him . He’s a Christian, and he likes music and he’s a choir boy, and well, he’s pretty cute too, I guess. I mean, I don’t normally note that sort of thing, but when I thought about it, he’s exactly what I’ve described (physically) as my ideal guy; taller than me, dark hair, dark eyes, a bit scrawny, but only because he’s tall (basketball player---I’m almost ashamed to like a jock),and he’s only the second or third guy I’ve ever really been interested in who’s also been interested in me.
So, I’m working on that. I’m honestly attracted to this guy--he worships openly, he loves God fully. And what’s hotter than that?
But I’m still trying to decide if dating seriously is something I even want to do. I want to do a church internship program next year. One of the requirements of the first year is no dating. I just can’t imagine what kind of feeling it would be to have to break a relationship like that off for a year.
But I’m afraid of it, a little. Especially now. A guy I know casually is definitely interested in me, and I honestly like him more every time I talk to him . He’s a Christian, and he likes music and he’s a choir boy, and well, he’s pretty cute too, I guess. I mean, I don’t normally note that sort of thing, but when I thought about it, he’s exactly what I’ve described (physically) as my ideal guy; taller than me, dark hair, dark eyes, a bit scrawny, but only because he’s tall (basketball player---I’m almost ashamed to like a jock),and he’s only the second or third guy I’ve ever really been interested in who’s also been interested in me.
So, I’m working on that. I’m honestly attracted to this guy--he worships openly, he loves God fully. And what’s hotter than that?
But I’m still trying to decide if dating seriously is something I even want to do. I want to do a church internship program next year. One of the requirements of the first year is no dating. I just can’t imagine what kind of feeling it would be to have to break a relationship like that off for a year.
For those of you not paying attention, I did do said internship. My year has been up. Officially for one and a half months. This guy and I have been talking/texting somewhat frequently for about two and a half months now. He even remembered to call on my birthday, something my best friends failed to do.
Okay guys, what do I do?
Obviously I’m going, but I have all this inner turmoil about it…It would certainly be nice if this was a date, and I would enjoy myself, but that opens a can of worms as well….As and intern, even though I’m now allowed to date, my friends/fellow interns/mentors/church members are also scrutinizing my relationships….
And seriously, if he called me at 4:30 Friday to as me out on Saturday, am I required to notify my best girl friends about said maybe!date before hand?
What about best guy friend? Am I a terrible person for not telling him when he asked me what was new at work today, just after I had accepted invitation to said maybe!date?
Is this maybe!date to the Battle of the Bands a date, or does my friend from high school who my one girlfriend informed has “liked me for a really long time” just want to share a possibly awesome musical culture event with the music geek he talks to semi-frequently?
AHHH! Dating (well, maybe!dating, or not dating at all…..) kinda sucks.
This whole situation is increasing the levels of WorldSuck. ((I love Brotherhood 2.0!)
