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Phew... I feel a lot better! (despite still being sick) I was very firm with Vampy this morning, despite his attempts at the heart strings... --.-- By the way, I've decided that he's, whether or not it's on purpose, playing off my sympathy, which is why I didn't given him any this time @.@ but anyway, I told Zen about it too... well sort of anyway o.O Turns out he does read my journal *waves to him and giggles*

You know, two sides of one thing couldn't possibly go any further opposite then this one did o.O The Vampy side went just about like I thought it would, a whole lot of trouble, 'cept I managed to carry off the callus part and thus saved myself a bit of it @.@ (for anybody else who has the soft hearted problem, the trick is to decide what you want ahead of time and stick to your guns >.< Straying from them is not only suicide, but it's also betraying yourself and the thing you're fighting for.)

The Zen side, to be honest, left me oddly bewildered o.O somehow I expected he'd flip or something... be mad at me or... *laughs* want to beat the living tar out of Vampy, I don't know. Actually, I take that back, those aren't what I expected, those where what I was afraid would happen. o.o Not like I'd exactly mind Vampy getting the tar beat out of him at this point --.-- (dear god, does he ever try my patience, which is not something that can be said of a lot of people) but that wouldn't exactly help me steer him down the road of friendship. (don't ask me why I'm still attempting to do that either >.< I know it'll most likely blow up at some point and I'll have to just stop talking to him... but... that's the last fragment of my sympathy hanging on with all it's might @.@ )

Anyway, it turns out something similar happened to Zen a long time ago, which makes me feel a bit better 3nodding Considering it's happened to Zen, Shin, Cat, Hiei, (she's a girl...) Cat's friend Matsua and a whole slew of other wonderful people I'm starting to think of it as something that almost proves how nice and soft a person is ^.^;; Horrible way to think of it, I know, but at the same time it's quite true... Only a person with a soft heart will put it on a platter and let a schemer trample it --.--

Well, I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders, especially with how softly Zen let me know it was alright -^.^- and now I'm so tired I can barely move *giggles and keeps plunking buttons on the keyboard with the last of her strength* Suppose it's 'cuz I was riding on pins and needles all day but being sick certainly didn't help >.< Strange how these things all seem to accumulate on one day, huh? Anyway, I'm really glad I dealt with Vampy fist... I know I didn't -do- anything, but I most likely couldn't have face Zen or even gone to sleep with out clearing my conscious and setting things right... Well anyway, I'm off to bed, clean, clear and very, very happy ^.^

Have a wonderful week! *nods happily and heads for a crash land on the closest soft thing*