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Life is a b***h that won't stop nagging about unclean dishes.


Craptastic:

Life is just craptastic. I have to drop a class, thus making me owe $200-300 to Finacial Aid. I can't take that class anymore, it is pointless, and it is worth repaying money. I don't think I could catch anyways for how much I have fallen behind. That is the only think I can't really complain cause it was my own fault.

The real problem is the world crumbling, or within question. I had a path I wanted to do. I wanted to do pre-requisites for art Institute, but i am thinking of not going at all. Cause it is just a waste of money. I need to start networking while I am still young. Then actuelly get some work as a side job. I really just want to take some important art classes and media classes.

This is making my spirit go down, cause it is just getting to a point where I don't know where to go anymore.

Then just yesterday my Girl friend gets upset over that icould not spend time with her. I had to watch my brother abruptly for my parents to go out. They DIDN'T go I might add, and that was just a waste of my time and ******** my plans up. My Girl Friend won't call me back. She is depressed over school and such. She takes it out on me. I am frustrated and being even more de-spirited. I can't stand it anymore. My depression is turning to alot of empty anger.

Only thing good coming from it is drawing. Drawing a little more often. Which is sad to me that it takes something to get me depressed or angry to actuelly draw more often.

I want to hurt someone so bad, I can't stand it. I am feeling a little cold and alone. I don't listen to Boulevard of Broken Dreams so much mainly cause i hear it all the time. It's overly popular to me. For some reason I am listening it more often. To the point where I keep having it repeating all day all night.


I want to escape.......



Question of the ******** day:

How far do you get angry?
I don't know, want to find out?

Do you sometimes imagine how you would kill someone in anger?
Alot, sometime to people I say I love.

Is you anger so intense that you twitch in reaction to what your thinking?
I do it all the time.

The world hates you, period stare