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Pisses me off when people assume I am a pushover. That I'd rollover and hide when someone confronts me. Make fun of me, mess with me anyway....and think they can get away with it.
Just because I look Asian:
Yeah, I look it....but in fact i am four different things. That's not the case. I look Asian. So when someone messes me, makes fun of me, I KNOW they'd would not do that to a black guy, or any other race except white. Good example is when my mom was walking around City College, some lady (who had a carrage with a baby) starting saying jibberish pretending to say something in chinese in a comedic way. She started laughing with her male friend or companion next to her.
That kind of s**t I just can't stand.
OR when I go down Mission (mostly hispanics in that area) people STARE at me. I don't mean they stare at me like I am an alien. Talking about the kind of staring me down, like they're better then me.
BUT
That's not the worse part.
I am with my girl friend. She lives in the Mission and IS hispanic. Regardless of me hold her hand or my arms around her.....THEY STILL HIT ON HER!!! In Front of ME, no less!!
I am NOT the jealouse type, but this is too much.
When I am with my friend who is primarily Black.....no one messes with me.....never has experienced those staring contects I have. This also him trying to notice too. freakin frustrating.
In middle school that's when it dawn on me how I was the one being messed with. I am surrounded by black and hispanics. I have my best friend, but he looks hispanic (Phillipino), unfortunatly is not around as much cause we have different classes. The same people that mess with me, I see them never messing with CERTAIN people. I remotly stand up for myself, then they start acting tough.
Unfortunatly I always have to prove myself to them. In middle school it was fighting. Straight fighting. Mainly cause it was a inner city school. Intellect was not something people had, only time it caused something like that was how well can you make fun of the other. I won all my fights, and actuelly proved to them I can hurt back. Still was not enough cause I look freakin skinny typical asian.
High school, I did not get in many fights. Fights I have scene was yelling at each other. Mostly over pumped anger. Luckily for me I had no fights except one, but that was just punking s**t.
I try to make myself individualized. I am the type that like original stuff. My hair is changing here and there, but I think I like it wit the spiky fro-hawk thing. Even with this none typical Asian look, I still get bad vibes. Not as much.....just a little.
Just the thought of someone pushing me to the limit....makes me imagine of really REALLY bad things I would do to them. The real question is, would I really do it to them?
Other stuff:
Art work, taking a VERY long time. I think I can just turn it in partially done. Cause DAMN it's a long time for just a little bit.
Is it just me, or is my old journal entries all broken up into these loooong side scrolling s**t. stressed
I have a guitar that I practice ( I don't know s**t) and I tried tuning it. Twice i broke the strings. First was the old one then the second was new ones. xp I think I should not take a career in music. Better at drawing anyways.
Quote:
"All non-conformists hate other non-conformists for not conforming to their standards of non-conformity."
Remember that and your life will be a happy one.
Question of the Day
Would you go ballistic if someone messed with you?
Are you the type to be messed with?
What is your defining moment(s) in life that made you who you are today?
Random thoughts:
Looking through a retard's mind, would he/she think that everyone is a retards?
Are we normies the real retards?
If destiny existed, would that mean if I sat in my sit and did near to nothing.....would destiny still happen?
What would you say or do to Santa Clause if you caught him?
 taikerr · Wed Apr 27, 2005 @ 11:56pm · 3 Comments |
