'Tag,
I'm starting to get in my mood again, which isn't pleasant at all. Supposedly, it's clinical depression, but I don't believe that. I don't even know why I went to the doctor in the first place. But whenever I get in this mood, nothing interests me and I push everyone away from me. I try to cheer myself up by acting all cheery, but when everyone's sleeping and I'm laying in bed awake.. I can't help but over think everything damn thing. I think about the stupidest things, and they always get me depressed as hell.
Another problem I've developed is insomnia. I cannot sleep. Well, I do sleep, but I get maybe at least an hour of sleep a night, if lucky. It's not as big of a problem no more since school has ended. I don't mind staying up most the night and going outside to look at the stars. I must say, those stars are great at distracting my mind, but some thoughts don't easily disappear.
Lately, I've been having mixed feelings about everything, especially about a person. It's not like heavy duty mixed feelings, but I don't think they really care about me anymore. Sure, they say they do, but the way they act doesn't back up what they say. We talk less than ever, and we only talk when they want to. I usually have to bug the ******** out of the them to get them to talk to me. I've brought up this issue before, but they still haven't changed; I have even tried being strict about it, but that didn't work either. I don't know what to do. I'm thinking about giving up. I really am.. but when I think about old times.. Bleh.
I remember when we used to talk forever. We'd talk all night and still be ready to talk early the next morning. I never had a problem trying to start a conversation because anything you said, it'd begin an hour conversation and then we'd move on to something else. They even acted differently; they were happy.
I don't know, I just don't get the same vibe as before.. maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just imagining things because I don't sleep enough nor eat properly. ********, now I'm depressed.
Well, this is all for now. Sigh.. maybe things will brighten up tomorrow. Till next time, Tschau.
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