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All my life I've always been alone, I've never had anyone truly love me or nothing. And somehow I think its a curse, I'll always be alone. But some way I'll deal with it I always have, not much else I can do right now. I'm just...well upset at the events that happened last night, losing three people to a string of emotions. Not that it matters the damage is done and I've lost them. More importantly Krissy...I had a wonderful time with her, but apparently I'm not strong enough to have her.

Someone else should take her now because after something like that, she's not gonna take me back. And I don't want her to for that matter, I want her to find someone to take care of her...I'm not gonna be around too much longer anyways. I feel like I'm dying and I don't know why...but I just want to let it come, let it take me, fall asleep and never wake up again. Thats truly what I want.

I've broken my wrist, ruined my bike, might have to get surgery, and lost three important people in my life all in one week. Losing three people is a record for me...I swear I should get an award for rotten judgement.

It all ends here, I was never the happiest kid because of everything that happened in my life, and if I have to live alone I want to die alone....thats all, 'nuff said. Guess I'll just walk the path once more...on my own. How far I'll go is easy...about 2 years.