Life is just not made for me, nothing seems to work no matter what I do. When ever things start to get good either my brother, mother, step dad mess it up. I have many times thought of killing myself but decided not to for i scared of Death. I have pondered of selling all my stuff and giving up on everything...my stories are not working out, I can no longer draw for fun, video games are no longer that fun and I am starting to get where i do not care about anime much..I still love it but...not as much into it. Driving is fun but today is last day to drive for I will no longer be insured for my mom said if i not pay i not drive, my cell will up and running till end of July for i have only payed 2 months on it well payed my mom. I have looked some what for a job but gave up its not worth it, school starts in one month and i do not plan to work school days so why bother...-sigh- I know others have it worse but..>.< I was not raised for this...i have had to learn on my own the most, i learned alot from grandmother but mom got me to forget alot and would raise me different as a kid so i get mixed up easy.
My whole life is more or less online, that is only place other than with friends that makes life fun...I am confused about many things, so having fun is hard, each game I have been taught is different when played with others, living in a new area changes life, not much ever stays the same..way i see everything is off, nothing comes to me as fast when use to i could say quick replies, do puzzles and what not now my brain dose not let me move as fast with it, they say school helps but really all it dose is make your brain fail you when most needed.
I was in my first car hit June/28/07, Ashley was with me but we were not hurt, a dent bigger than a basket ball was made on back door near tire on drivers side, that made my mind spaz, I could not think of one thing, my mind was on many at one time not giving me time to respond to what to do, so the dude and i pulled over away from traffic and called 911 and got a report, the dude hit me so he pays and that good i guess but i can't open back door. So i upset on that and many other things.
My bro is acting out, he is doing things that are outlawed and smoking under age, he takes my car with out asking and then has no money for gas making me use most of my 5 day money (from DollyWood) on gas.
Yes i know i complain alot but you not have to read it, it all up to you. I know there is alot more to say but it hard to say at times on how to write it.
I may have a yard sell soon to sell few things not sure...
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