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Love:

Okay. It's not infatuation, cause that doesn't go longer for a year. Maybe a little over, but not much.
I've loved Dan for two years and almost two months now. If that doesn't seem right by the year and a month I posted in five or something posts back, then you've gotta know that I messed up on that last one. It's right now.
It's not a crush; crushes don't go past, like, five months.
Maybe I wanna be his friend. I've considered that, since I know a lot of teenage girls tend to mix up love and friendship (I'm sure I'm that way too)
But he's....not very nice to any of my friends. He hates Tyler for no reason, and Tyler's already punched him once, maybe twice now. I'm not sure.
Everybody likes Tyler, though, so I don't see why...
Oh well. Anyway, not that long ago, I found out Dan used to be a geek. And a friend with John (this random guy I know from WOC) and I think Tyler.
Everybody likes Tyler. Maybe Dan hates his being a geek before, so he hates Tyler because he's from that previous geek life. I don't know.
I'm liking a new guy; Scott. Not the Scott I've mentioned before; this is a different guy.
Scott (*won't give last name* but it's Mc-something...Irish ^^)
He's even more similar to me. His hair and eyes are like mine, and he laughs at similar stuff, just like Dan did.
The only problem is, he says things in such a calm way, when he should be angry, or sad, or just more emotional, and it makes me laugh so hard sometimes.
He just emphasizes key words, and the rest is just calm, and it just sounds so funny (too calm) that I can't help but laugh.
I humiliated myself once when I cracked up at something he said, and I was laughing so hard, and I couldn't stop. I was bent over, so I couldn't see if people stared at me, but I'm sure they did.
Scott was like 'Uhm..............'
He didn't actually say anything, but he looked kind of akward. He didn't talk until late in the period next day(science class).
Before that, I thought he was never gonna talk to me again, and I felt really bad...I had been considering asking him if he wasn't talking to me because of that laughing fit or something on that subject, but it would have sounded strange and lame, but he just commented on something right then and I was saved any more embarrassment that might have come from it.
I think I want Scott as a friend, though, not as a lover *blushes*
He's nice, much nicer than Dan, (sometimes dan is fine, but I've never seen him actually be nice *sad face*), and he doesn't say mean stuff about Lyra. I'm not sure Dan does, but all Scott does on the subject of Lyra is ask questions, not say she's weird, or different or strange, like Dan and his friend hint in conversation.
Lyra is who she is, and atleast Scott isn't rude about it.
That's why I like him. He doesn't make fun of other people, he's pretty laid-back; I think he's also someone you can trust and go to for help. Of course, he takes these: to qoute him, "Big-a** pills every morning"
XDD
That's for his ADHD, and I'm sure if he didn't take them, he'd be hyper or something, and really not at all the person I know, and, I think, have come to love *blushes scarlet again, even though doesn't know if it's as friend or lover*
UURGH
I've forgotten everything else thinking about this.
Might as well say a little more on it then.

SOME DEEP THOUGHTS:

Either he's friend or he's lover, and, either way, I don't know how to approach him since he's got a whole bunch of friends, some I hardly know, others I don't like.
Atleast he's going to Dulaney. Maybe I'll be more confident next year sometime, and ask him out, or ask him to be a friend or sometthing...I don't know for sure, though.
XD *fails to think deep thoughts*