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I don't know how to describe these feelings
They reach deep into my body
Could it be love?
I don't think i'll ever know

I've set him free
Will he come back?
Does he feel the same way?
It's so hard to know what will happen

I just sit back and watch
It's easier now after so many years
Is he hiding something from me,
Or am i just imagining things?

I sigh
Romantic dreams invade my head
While i sleep, i get to be with him
Even if it isn't really that way between us

I can't stop those dreams
They're telling me something
Though i haven't figured it out yet
Maybe they'll become reality

He's always saying we're just friends
Is that meant more for me or him?
Does he really think that?
I don't understand his signs

He's a two-faced liar
How can i feel this way?
God, help me figure this out
Because i can't do it on my own

I want him so bad
It's killing me that need of mine
Just once i want a taste of him
It's been so long since i had the last one

I imagine it every day
The feel of his sweet lips
Crushed against mine
The softness of his skin beneath my fingertips

I can't stand it much longer
I wish something would happen
Fingers itch with the need to touch him
It happens even when he's not around

I would make a move
But i'm afraid, so afraid
I don't know what he would do
I'm scared he would turn away

There, i said it
Now i really don't know what to do
I'm so tired of waiting
It's been such a long time

I keep going back and forth
Telling myself i shouldn't like him like that
But it's hard to stop the habit
It's been too long