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Romance. Love. Relationships. None of those things had ever been of good fortune for me. Even though romance and love was all I ever wanted especially "fairytale romance". Being a teenage girl can you blame me? My entire romantic life had been laid out in so many ways and scenes that every time something romantic came it wasn't right. It wasn't what I had been searching for. It just wasn't meant to be.
I began to wonder after awhile if fairytale romances were meant for reality. Could I be saved from a tower? Could I wake up from an everlasting sleep by a kiss? Was it too much for magic to be real? Will I ever find someone that I truly love? And is there such a thing as a kiss where you can feel the sparks or fireworks? All those questions I had ran my entire life, but none more so than the question everyone wanders. Will I find that person the makes me happy?
Yes that was my life. Wandering around hopelessly and looking for every enchanting prince charming I could find. It wasn't until I read a certain book that I fully realized the fairytale that had been there all along.
"Best friends." I had sighed to myself many times reading the pages of that book. I was reading of two characters being friends for practically forever falling in love for the first time. The only bad part was he thought she wanted to marry the prince. That book was one of the many stories that have that happening along with television and songs. It amazed me how writers thought that sort of thing could happen when it's obvious it can't. To be friends forever and then turn into a relationship would be awkward, but all relationships start out as friendships; just not friendships that had been kept together for such a long time. You couldn't fall in love after being in a friendship for so long. Could you?
Could’ve sworn I saw your face that day
Looking over directly at mine
At least three years ago on a May
Had very well been that one last time
Even though more men have come along
I have always missed only one, you
Spring came and sang its graceful love song
But did it really know what was true?
They say you really have spoke of me
Recalled of some good and bad old times
And how something that was meant to be
Had flew away with all the old Mines
What had happened between you and I
Is now recalled behind my thin eye
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Spring had come in the county. Spring came later than expected that year for everyone and it had sang its love song in the breeze. It wouldn’t be long before everyone in the county was floating in the air with love. Love from afar, love from behind, unexpected love and even kindergarten crushes would arise. Although not admitted everyone knew what was happening it was that feeling of warmth that comes with Spring the special warmth that had been brought over this particular year.
Every county, region, town whatever spring decided to encounter had taken turns being showered with the love spring brought. Love in the air during spring? Only if spring had decided to bring it.
Even so everyone knew no one had been more confused about her feelings than Kathryn. She had once again been heart broken and once again lost a bit about her thoughts of fairytale romances. She had been wandering over the years now if fairytale romance was meant to clash with reality. No one knows the answer to that though, because you can only see it in books, television, and music. The most celebrated thing in life was and always will be love.
Kathryn was indeed a hopeless romantic who spent most her time reading books trying to become more intelligent. Unfortunately she never seemed to realize that it was what she does more than worrying over her own love problems. She’s more wrapped up in reading other fairytale stories to see the one she’s had for so long.
Take my hand if it is what you seek,
All the things I once had always make me weak,
I'm looking for a hero to save me from my troubles,
He'll find me once I set foot out of this rubble,
I'll hold his hand as he shall hold I's,
And we'll sit and gaze at the stars pouring from the sky,
So take me now for I seek you,
Prove to me thy love is true.
Kathryn stretched out on the field thinking of her life and how she was living it. She felt a light breeze come across her face. “Spring. Why have you come to make me think?” she looked up and asked the sky as though it was spring itself. She heard a laugh from behind, “Kathryn, what am I going to do with you?” Christian asked her. “I’ve known you for years. And I’ll still never understand you!” he went on. Kathryn now laughed, “I’m just like you, a hopeless romantic.” She replied.
He pushed his long hair out of his face,
“Read any good books lately?”
“Yes, but once again a romance that can never can come true.”
“What was the oh so dreadful envious romance now?”
“Two friends that fall in love after knowing each other forever.”
Then it struck her. Springs love song hit her face first. Her memories were returning and her eyes were opening. Everyone had wandered if there was something between him and her and now she saw why. Did he know? Did he see it too? Was she a part of a fairytale romance that was never to come true. Was she proving love could happen in any way? Was she in love?
“Are you ok?” Christian asked looking into her eyes. “Fine.” Kathryn replied. “Do you believe springs love song has come upon us this year?” she asked.
“Yes”
“Do you believe any two people can be in love?”
“Yes. People have told me countless times to go steady with you. Even though I’ve made it quite clear we’re only friends. You and I are meant to be friends.”
Kathryn’s heart stopped. Memories of Christian giving her ‘signs’ that he liked her whizzed thru her head. For the first time she believed she could do this. She believed her friend that’s she had for so long could become her boyfriend. She believed that she could accomplish something she never thought she could do. Springs love song had sang thru her head making her believe in herself. Giving her confidence.
Later she stood alone in the field watching couples go by. She looked up to the sky once more talking to it as though it was spring itself, “Thank you.” The wind blew moving her hair and springs love song was all that could be heard.
Friends forever?
Or can it turn?
Turn into something new?
I thought of it once and once again
but do all directions point to you?
Friends forever?
Or is there something more?
Is there something that can be?
Be together?
Be more than a fantasy?
Friends forever?
Is that a myth between you and I?
Or a myth to the people outside of us?
A myth in front of eyes?
Friends forever?
Might there be a spark?
Might there be truth in these words?
Or might all these feeling hide in the dark?
Friends forever?
I admit I hope not
I admit my feelings have been on and off
Friends Forever?
Or can we be more?
Can we turn this thing into something bigger?
Let's be more than friends.
And perhaps stay together forever?
The End
 Kawii Samurai · Wed Jun 13, 2007 @ 02:49am · 0 Comments |
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