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I was soo ******** hyper yesterday you have no idea, then I crashed and slept twelve hours again, yikes, what's with me and sleeping soo much in the last few days? I was still tired when I got up...Anyways..

His birthday is friday...I have nothing to give him...except this little love note thing that seems really corny no matter how heartfelt. Oh goddess, please don't let him take it and burn it. I can write all this because I know he won't be on Gaia for awhile, thus I can get away with it all. Erk, I worry. Even if I did have money I wouldn't know what to get him...

Speaking of money I went over to Value Shitty and took their half hour questionaire and application, great fun. In all actuallity I hope they hire me, I need a job. Freaking CJ's Closet wasn't hiring and the little Catholic store next to it is family owned. Too bad, I'd love to work in a religious place... sweatdrop

-Half hour later today-

Wow. I just re-read my old journal entires. Wow...I was a ******** tragic case over Mike and wow did he play me like a doll...wow...I am one stupid ******** still want some kind of settlement...Sad thing, really, but I want to see him and smack him across the face and ram his ring down his throat because I feel like I can't give my whole self to Jarrod yet. I love the living s**t out of him an all but...it feels like I'm waiting for something. Final closure? Maybe.