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At the moment I am sitting here in the computer lab area in the library, waiting to go to the read in. Honestly right now all I ever see is something that I would rather not see. I think I'm begining to like a couple new peole, but I really don't know.. They're cool and all, but I hardly talk to those two so I have no idea if its just my imagination or not. Anyways, everyone is bugging me today (as usual!). lol.. really though. Oh.. btw, got called to the guidance office about Keytones and if I'll be taking the class. I told her that I would talk to Mrs. Stroud because I really don't want to get rid of the classes I have unless I absolutely have to. I don't want to give up yearbook, health occupations, or spanish.. I want to get Spanish over with and it'd be easier to take it next year to get it over with.. I don't plan on taking Spanish 3. Who knows what my plans will be for my senior year though anyways.. Might not even be in Chesterfield.. Might be gone.. You know.. the thought of if anyone would care about me dieing crossed my mind last night.. Yes, I know Miranda.. You're going to kill me for that thought, but I'm not going to lie and say that the thought of how people would react has crossed my mind. Chris, don't even bother commenting. I don't want to know what you think of that.. Really.. Just let my mind wander and go into the blackness that I don't feel like crawling out of. There is no light. Well, hopefully I'll have fun at the Read In. Usually I don't update in the morning (if you have payed attention at all to the times of my entries!) so this feels sort of weird.. I'm too honest.. Too open on this journal, but yet I just can't seem to help it.. Good thing? Or bad thing? I don't know. It can put a dent in some things I guess, but this is my relief.. This is where everything can come out and I can feel relaxed for getting it out, if only for a moment. Well, this is going to be it. So I'll update again soon. Later.