Another "milestone" moment in my life, and it's just one more dissapointment. Every big thing Highschool, Love, Pregnancy, Graduation, Prom, Formal dances; every single one has been terrible.
Love was supposed to be filled with kisses, flowers, romance, dates, just so much. Myckel has never taken me on a date, given me flowers, been romantic, or even asked me to a freaking dance. He didn't even come to my Graduation tonight. I'll probably never get married, even if I did it would be small, short, uneventful, and unromantic.
I thought being pregnant would be one of the happiest times of my life and I've spent well over half of it being excited all by myself and crying by myself. He's only seemed interested twice: when we were picking names and once when it was kicking at school. He hasn't even told his parents yet and I'm almost at the six month mark.
I secretly always wanted to go to prom. You know pick out a dress, get picked up by my date, get flowers or a corsage, have pictures taken, and dance the whole night with my date. Yet the only formal dance I ever went to I was asked by my friend and cried and argued half the night because my boyfriend wouldn't dance with me. I don't think I've had a truly romantic moment any time in my life. Probably never will.
I don't know why I expect so much out of life and other people. You think after the first ten-fifteen years of dissapointments I would have learned.
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