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It's Not For Me
I don't care how many times she says it to me. It's not for me. This party isn't for me it's for her. My mom is using me as an excuse to ahve a party. My sweet 16 party is nnothing but my mom trying to live her life through me again. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of her making me feel like I have to go and do things. I'm tired of her living her life thorugh me.

I'm just a teenager. I wanna live my life the way I want to. I wanna be strong but it's so hard to be somtimes. I wish I could stand up to her but I can't. She'll just yell scream and hit me. I wish sometimes I was diffrent and I was the daughter she wanted. The perfect pretty daughter that does everything right and doesn't get a plain report card, and is involved in everything, and has hundreds of friends that all love her.

Sometimes I feel like a mistake. My mom was pregnant with me before her and my dad got married. I don't think they wanted me at all. They just kept me cause my mom didn't want an importion probly.


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  • User Comments: [2]
    Welcome to my world yeah my parents complain that I stay in here to much but I never got in trouble or nothing I at least found you which im happy for and im sure you werent a mistake you would know it by now because they would of told you well actually maybe there not inconsiderate pricks but amanda you should have a choice in how you want to live your life and I finally learned that and I cant belive this because you go through the same bullshit I go through its screwed up but I guess its ok since im not a bedroom loser anymore and actually have some friends I just want to let you know im always there for you if anything comes up

    comment Basspro55 · Community Member · Sun Jun 03, 2007 @ 09:43pm
    My sweet and dearest friend, like the first person that replied, I know how you feel. Our parents don't know how hard it is to feel this way. crying We want to tell them how we feel, but they don't listen. It's even worse where you go to school and the teachers don't care about you because you're not the race, ethnicity that they want you to be. It's sad. If parents were in our shoes, I think they'd want to go back to being adults. Please don't feel bad, PurpleFlame 528. We all go through this ordeal. It's like an American ritual. Let this be a lesson to you: since you know how bad this feels, your children won't have to suffer through it, becuase you'll put a stop to it. I pray for youy and your friends. I hope God will show your mom how important you are and that if she doesn't treat you right, she'll be sorry later on in life. I'm there for you and know that you ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!!!! We will always be there for you! Give yourself a peace of mind and let yourself know that you won't turn into your mother and that you refuse to live this way.

    PS: Be safe and keep hope alive!

    Love heart ,
    Aquamarine Firefly

    comment Aquamarine Firefly · Community Member · Tue Aug 28, 2007 @ 06:55pm
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