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im sorry every1 i cant explain what happening 2 me i no im hurting so many people and i no im hurting myself.. i just want ed 2 tell u that everyday scince monday ive been cutting myself everyday and this morning i almost tried 2 kill myself.... im scared of myself im scared of all the things i might do.. i dont want 2 be alone cause im afraid of what im going 2 do.. but i also just want 2 be alone and not let any1 see that im feeling this way... today i just have completly lost it and no mattter what i do i just keep feeling worse and worse.. i realy need some1's help i just need some1 to come and make sure that i dont do it cause i cant... i hate asking 4 help i hate having 2 live this life i hate having to try to make the choice if i should live or die... i just want 2 let it all go and 2 drown myself... i go around all day in a trance not letting anything come in and drown everything out with music pain anything i just want it all 2 stop.... i hate myself 4 being like this i feel sick just knowing that im alive... im so scared and i feel so helpless.. i give up i finaly admit it i need help cause i cant hold how i feel off anymore im driving myself into a madness a dark pit that i cant climb out of.. i dont want 2 die.. but it seems 2 be the only solution... help me please