it makes me sad that i see girls beautiful then i am
or that a guy rejects me of what i am that i'm not good enough
and that the one guy i love...doesn't love me back or that when you ask the one you love says no to the prom.
its all about beauty
and what your going to miss out.what i will never know is how to feel pretty
i have been hiding behind a pale white mask with dark make up around my eyes hiding who i really i am. i had who i am inside and i will never know what it will feel like to be loved. most people would see that what guys want is the boobs, and booties and the pretty face and body a chick has but for us girls who don't have that.......we're pretty ugly.
knowing that their words slice through our souls, we get torn down and knowing that the ones you love hurt you the most when they do not return the love for you.
i experinced that i am not ones to be called pretty, beautiful, bright, or anything close to being as a flower but a weed.
the tears that i cry is when my heart crys of what i wish i could be. that i'm not good enough for him. that i was a fool to think he loved me. i will never be good enough for him.
never.
i guess people don't really ask for it but many do and become real snotty about it. but what they don't know is they hurt us. badly making us wanting to cut ourselves, therapy, depression and suicide.
we go through life knowing of pain and knowing that love doesn't exisist in our cruel little worlds that no one will ever love us. we are pretty ugly. why would someone love a wrench like me?
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