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Dear Diary, 5/10/09 7:25 P.M.
Today wasn't one of my best days ever. I was bored doing nothing except watching T.V. You know how they say people can't get fun without internet acess. Well that is true. There is barely anything to do. I'm afraid I might have hurt some of my friends on gaia. Also why does my dad and brother have to care about the people I talk to? Well at least on the internet. They are so annoying. I had a hug from this boy yesterday who was my friend, only my friend and they got mad. WOW!!! It's not like it is a big deal. To tell you the truth I believe the reason why I'm going to die is because of my family. They are forcing me to hurt myself by fighting over me all the time. I know I have changed, but they better accept that and love along because I'm not going to change. I can't live without my internet friendz because I feel that the people on there actually care about me more then my own family. The family who took care of me, but not as well as they thought they did. Since the last three months I have been wishing to die, but when I heard what one of my friendz said about her life. Well it felt like both our lives were the same. I don't get my family or the problems they have, but I hope soon I will find out because its hurting me to not know and makes me want to kill myself.
Sincerely,
Ella
P.S.-If my dad really cared about me he would have felt sad about the pain I am having. Also he would have been worried or at least sad the day I got out of the Kenndy Memorial Hospital at 5 in the morning.