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"You broke my heart in two, no I will not forget you" -Muse <3
Oh man, why did you have to mean so much to me? Made you my world...
You told me you loved me, so why did you go? Why'd you make me believe in happy endings? Do you enjoy my pain? You knew what I was like, you knew all my weaknesses. You knew. Yet you didn't care. Oh man, wish I could erase you from my memories. You said that I was the only girl for you. Only girl my arse, darlin'. Forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever.....and ever? Bullshit.
And you wonder why I never seemed to believe you when you said those words. Because I knew you would leave... Because I knew this would happen. I just didn't expect it to be so fast like this. I didn't know you'd walk out of my life completely, leaving me in the dark like a stranger. Didn't know it meant i'd loose my best friend too. Forever and always, you never meant it didya? Hmm, I suppose not. How silly of me to have believe even for a second. I still remember our first kiss, that feeling I still miss. Never thought we'd have a last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this. After all we've been though, I thought I was going to have you forever. Thought you'd be my first and last love. It's okay, I know now. There's no such things as a happy ending. Locked up in your arms, that's where I want to be... hah. I wish you hadn't loved me. I wish I hadn't loved you. Now do you regret loving me? Told you that you would. I am sorry, for everything I put you through. I am sorry, for not being there enough for you. I am sorry, for not being good enough. And I'm sorry I'm not perfect, like you used to call me. I hope she makes you happy, I hope she's the one. But if not, I'll always be here waiting to catch you when you fall.. Thing is, I know you won't ever need me again... But that's okay, at least I was there when you needed me, right? Flashbacks of me and you, they hurt like hell. Do you feel any pain? Do I ever cross your mind, even for a second? I suppose not. I loved you so much, but everything happens for a reason. Maybe I loved you a little too much. Maybe I just wasn't good enough for you, and maybe you finally saw that too. You walked away from everything we had, but I still mean every word I said to you. I miss you, so so much. But there's nothing I can do, nothing to be said or done to make you see how much you meant to me. So I'll let you free.

"And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind"