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Guard is over. We all had our last season with Yuri, Tammy and Niccole. I'm going to miss them all very much and its not going to be that same with out them. crying So we have awards for everyone and I got the "cute and little" award. I guess I'm cute! whee I also got the rookie of the year! blaugh I didn't think I would. and it makes me so happy. I was about to cry but it would be a happy cry. Sorry Shia I think i might join again next year. Its important to me and your a great friend and I know you will understand.

Okay since I'm in a marching band The girls all have to use a locker room for showers during spat camp. Well at spat camp i got a wort on my big toe and I tryed some wort remover but it maltiplyed and now I have to deal with the pain of getting them burned off god it sucks and is the most ainful thing that I have ever done in my life.

Okay so I'm just a normal person. Right? I don't know I feel like all my friends don't really like me. Theres a couple like my friend Shia and my boyfriend Chris, I know that they care about me but I don't know. When I see people smiling I copy I do the same. I have so many problems but I hide them with a smile. I don't want people to have to deal with my problems but I want a little help. I feel like everyone is going super fast and I'm going so slow that I'm being left behind. I what to know who I am and what I will become. neutral I really have no one to talk to about my problems. I have friends but I'd rather talk about their problems then my own. I know I can talk to them but when I want to I can't find the words. cry I loose people all around me and I always have a smile but thats not who I am. I don't even know who I am. I go to school like everyone else right? I breath like you and me right?
I don't know... I guess I just need to write it all out in something. stare

Misha confused

oka y well I haven't put anything in this for a while so here I go.

I went to the MOA for an all night park thingy and got really sick. But I didn't miss school I wish i could of but I didn't.

I just saw this movie call in the land of wormen. I feel bad for the guy in the movie cause he lost his grandmother and so have I . I know how it feels like to loose someone you care about.

Next my family killed our pool. the lining in it is all screwed up. now people have to come out and fix it. I just want to swim in it.

Well I'm pretty sure that I'm failing all my classes. they went from and a to an f. I hate school.



I give up now so bye.
Misha blaugh

I hate myself right now... I can't do anything right. I fall up the stairs, I can't get an A in any of my classes, And I have no clue on what i want to do in my life. I want to do something with my life but what is there? I can't do anything active because of my stupid legs and I want to join something but I don't know what. Shia I need help. I am so stressed and I can't help but be. cry My parents are gone and I am itting at a computer. I need more to my life then just a computer and drumline. I want more then just movies and music. I know that music and drumline are my life but I quit I want more. stare I want to be someone new. I want to completely redo my life just to see if it would turn out the same. Would I still be here at this computer or would I be doing something with my life. Maybe i'd be doing something that I can go to collage for. I don't know. crying I just can't help but wonder what it would be like to start over.