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Latley I have been so stressed out. With the sustody battle, the fact that I am staying at a family friends house for 45 days until the next court date, the fact that people are trying to break me and my boyfriend up, and finding out a huge secret from one of my friends, plus emotional issues I have been facing, I am about to lose it!!
I've been feeling physically sick for over 2 weeks now, I feel like I'm going to throw up if I dont eat, and if I do eat, I can hardly sleep, I can hardly breathe inside, I am suffocating. stressed sweatdrop cry
I really need to jsut let out how I feel, so I write poetry and that sometimes helps. I still feel absolutly helpless in all of these situations. But it is time for me to take charge of my life and save myself, and not always think about others. They tell me to act my age, man is that hard. I am used to being so mature and making my own decisions even though I can be an indecisive person, I have to act older becuase I was responsible for alot of stuff that I shouldnt have been incharge of at such a young age, so tis really hard. damn...my heart keeps racing.
]"I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break"
''Nothing seems to go away, over and over again, jsut like before"
"Ive felt this way before, so insecure. Crawling in my skin, these wounds, they will not heal"
--Linkin Park--
My parents are telling me there issues and when they ask how I am, i fake smile and tell them that I am ok, but deep inside, I am bruised and broken, I cant really tolerate this anymore. I feel like people just use me to get things off their chests and then never truely want to know how I am feeling. I guess I am ok with that. sad stressed scream burning_eyes
 XatreyuXloveX · Sat Jul 28, 2007 @ 12:47am · 0 Comments |
