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If you -pay- a buck for 100 Gaia $, yup, you're a loser. |
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Sorry, but it's the truth. If you or anyone actually PAID these clowns real money for your fake avatar bullshit, man, you musn't have a life. Come on, most items cost greater than 1000 G, factored at about $10. TEN BUCKS?! Get off your anime worshipping emo a** and make that actually worth something. Take out your friend for a round or two. Ugh.
 MrDrunkarate · Thu Oct 14, 2010 @ 04:48am · 0 Comments |
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Oh god.
Why can't I do better?
The girl I'm seeing, I just talked to her on friday, hoping I was going to see her on saturday. She told me she'd give me a call. I probably got stood up for alcohol. Her grandpa said it's unlikely she even left the rez.
********. I sure know how to pick them. An alcoholic, christian, crack-dealing 19 year old mother of two.
I miss the other one. Miss China. I still love her too. How the ******** did I go from being with a cute, intelligent, beautiful, interesting, funny, sweet, university-attending, caring girlfriend of two years to this? Oh yeah, now I remember. I got dumped. Then my last aboriginal grandparent died less than a week later, and I went to the rez, met Cheilyne, slept with her (and the feeling still didn't go away)...
God damn I hate my life. Waiting for her to call, and she probably won't. Either too drunk or she's not even in the city. Why the ******** can't I ever meet a nice girl? The only one I ever had was with China. Before her, I didn't even have a girlfriend. I'd still be a virgin, a loser with no confidence.
But even now, I can't do s**t all. I don't get it. I'm not a bad-looking guy (I'm actually quite decent), I have a nice body, but I think I might be boring. All I do is work and practice karate. Whenever there's been a girl that *I* like and that *I* would like to make some advances on, I get shy, stupid, paranoid, insecure, or I just flat-out ignore them. In the end, I come out looking like a recluse, a jerk, or an a*****e. Before China though, it was worse. I didn't know anything about girls so I stalked the ones I liked (not in the "I'm going to follow you home and sneak a box of my toenails into your bedroom sock drawer" sense, just the stupid "High school geek following around his crush because he doesn't know what to say or how to handle his feelings/ the situation" way). But now, I just don't say anything or advance, because I don't want to stalk or even be compared to a stalker (because it's just plain-freaking-weird).
God, I hate my life.
I don't even know why I like this girl. Oh yeah, because she's hot. A model, actually. Is that it? nope, she's a freak in bed. I love it. But I don't see anything together with her. I suppose I shouldn't, as I'm still young and should play around a bit, but why can't I do better?
Man, and there's girls I like too. One in my dojo. I've had a crush on her since I (we) was (were) [a] yellow belt. I thought she was cute and all that, but I think the biggest attraction I had to her was her technique. I noticed it even back then (about four years ago). Now she's my senior, a black belt, and I'm still a brown belt. Problems are, she's probably one of the preppy asian types, and I haven't seen her in class lately. god. damn. it. What makes it worse, is that she says I'm intimidating. NOOOOOOOO!!!!! I don't want to come out that way!!!
To make it worse (on my part), I feel as though I -CAN'T- make any moves. The dojo isn't a singles bar. If things went awry, Sensei could lose a student (or two).
Blarg. Just shoot me.
MrDrunkarate · Mon May 16, 2005 @ 12:14am · 0 Comments |
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first post, yippeee.
MrDrunkarate · Mon May 09, 2005 @ 01:54pm · 0 Comments |
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