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Yeah, I definitely wish I wasn't smart. Brandon dropped out and he's doing okay. He still lives with his mom, yeah, but he's happy. Why stay in a class that makes you want to pull your hair out? Yeah, I'm looking at you AP Physics. And then Mrs Gee is all like 'well, from watching you Steven, I think that you should blah ******** blah to make your work better' What she doesn't see is that I don't have any work to make better. I copy people's work, and somehow get by on the quizzes, luck, i suppose. She says that I should try to understand the concepts better, I can't understand them by myself, the book is dry as hell, and I don't understand the incredibly boring language they use in it. I get it when Mrs Gee explains it, but most of the time, she doesn't explain it right the first time, and you get halfway through the problem, and then she's like, OHHHH! Well, everyone erase everything you just wrote on your paper and write down this instead! and then do it all over again! Another big thing of hers is to work in groups to get the stuff done. I'm sorry, but Amanda can't explain her work for s**t. And Daisha, she tries, but I don't get it when she explains it either, she thinks on a higher level than me, and can just do it all real quick, and I can't. And another thing is that I don't like how the class is a refresher course for everyone. They go to a new chapter and they're like, OOOHHH i remember this, this is easy, and then I get to it and I'm like, damn, I don't get this either, but what's new, I ******** blow at everything in this class. Plus everyone else in that class is way smarter than me, and there's a big intimidation factor, because you don't want to ask questions because everyone else knows the answer but you. I just don't really see the point of being in that class when all it's doing is bringing my grade down, and I know I'm not going to get a good grade on the AP test, that's was a given going in. To make my day worse, my mom picks me up and immediately starts bitching at me about how late i was getting to the car, and then started bitching about work and how her coworker Patty likes to spend money. My mom was like, I love saving money for myself. And I said mom, honestly, who the hell are you trying to kid. when you get money you blow it all real quick at the bar and on weed. And she was like, my ******** money is my business steven! And i was like, well, it cant be your business if you share all of your finacnial stuff with Drew. And she was like, leave drew out of this! If you're talking about that 2000$ I got and gave to drew, you can just shut your mouth, because him buying that car was my fault! and then, i was like, wait, it was 2000$? she only told me it was 1000$. SO this is news to me. So im like, well, actually mom, you had no part in drew buying that car, so don't try to stick up for him. How about you try helping your kid out who is failing a ******** class in a school that you wanted him to ******** go to? and she was like, well, im done talking about this. And i said, okay, well, I know you're going to keep bitching at home, so drop me off at the library. And she did, and now I'm writing this. And I don't think I'm eating dinner tonight, either. My mom has no money, and there's no one left to borrow from. That's another thing I'm sick of. My mom can go and spend money on her alcohol and weed, but some nights we don't get dinner. And I know when you read this sarah, you're going to be like, well, some nights i go to dance i don't get dinner either. Well, you at least have the opportunity to. And my ******** dead beat dad has like 80,000$ dollars that he won't ******** take out of his pension. He could get it very quickly if he did it. But my mom has to do all this paperwork, and it's going to take a few months now for us to get it. I'm pretty sure I'm screwed until that day comes.I'm done now, if you read through all of that, you're a trooper, for real. The end.