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I'm tired of your lies,
your imature,
grow up,
your not 16 anymore,
so many things you've said,
none of it is true,
so much you've done,
you seem to not care,
do you remember?
all the times you've left?
And where was i?
like you give a ********.
you dumped me anywhere you could,
you left me alone,
with people I didn't even know,
you didn't care what happened to me,
as long as you got what you wanted.
shut up,
i'm tired,
did you even say you're sorry?
******** no.
you think i didn't care?
well I did.
thanks for the memories,
they ******** suck.
you've never apologized,
even if you do now,
doesn't make a difference.
screw your apology.
like you ******** mean it anyway.
not that you ever took the time to think,
maybe i'm not ok.
maybe i was hurt,
maybe i was angry.
maybe..i still am.

She new from the begining;
something wasn't right;
nothing added up;
nothing made sense;
as they took him away;
she sobbed and cryed;
they said it was his time;
they said he had a good run;
but it was not supposed to be the end;
he was to do as he always did;
and she was to be happy another day;
but no, someone had other plans;
she sobbed and sobbed looking at the body;
the body that she found in his room;
the body she thought was asleep;
the pale colored face;
was the last image of him in her mind;
hush, he would not want to see you cry;
but how could she hold it in?
after all..it was her grandfather;
sure he was old;
but it was not his time;
there were little details no one thought to look at;
but she saw them easily;
insignificant clues ment the world to her;
and she knew the truth;
tis murder;
who would do such a thing?
she knew;
tis not her fault;
she didn't know what she was doing;
the ghost took over;
and she killed him;
the one person that she thought she could trust;
ended up being his demise;
no wonder she was gone so long;
she cryed alone that night;
remembering the horrid sight;
and she murmered..
"Why?"

dedication: Lester Clapperton, grandpa.