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December 26, 2004
Tee-Hee... sorry i havent written 4 ever... i got busy b uit just so everyone knows im happy....!!!! teehee. i ogt really busy after school when i useta write since josh jon and thomas come home with me after school. tee-hee and brian might join us soon. acually he probably wont be alowed to cuz his mom thinks im a slut... but thats her problem not mine. acually it probably is my problem, i just dont care enought to do any thing about it. oh well we see him after school any ways. well what ever..... juts to fill you in.....
josh jon brian and thomas are friends of mine that live near me. Josh jon and thomas get of at my bus stop just because they can. we normally sit on the comp and do nothin interesting or we just walk around the appartment complex. ..... oh yea, my sis is home for x-mess, its hell... it not that i dont like her, its just that she has problems and well, she drives me insane. in other words i cant stand her.
X-Mass just passed in case your stupid and didnt notice i got half of what i wanted.... but only the half i didnt want the most. i wanted an electric giutar, and amp, a cell phone, and internet in my room... i got the last 2.. .and i wouild be more exsited, but my cell isnt in the "in" network so i cant talk to any of my friends, and im not allowed to use it before 9 unless its on the weekends other then to talk to my mom. Which is the suckyest thing i have ever heard. but other then that its been good, and i kept up[ my X-Mass triditipon... i cried and i mean i was sad and all, but i dont think that this year was bad, and it wasnt cuz i didnt get what i wanted it was well i odnt want to tlka about it. but yea i have cried every chismass sinc ei was 8.... for many different reasons, but i kept up my tradition.
Fweeeee but other then that this was a great chrismass. fweee and im hyper tonight, but not tooo hyper and i kinda miss ke, he waa at his dad's for x-mass thing year and so i didnt get to tlak to him yet, accually i havent talk to im since thursday, and that makes me sad, and you know what makes me more sad, i havent seen him since the 17th, that was my birth day party. it was sooo much fun. i can say that it was one of my better b-days. tee-hee.
Yea..... oh fweee im just hyper and its late i shold probably be in bed, but im not going to sleep tonight. fweeeee yea im hyper and ready to jump around in circles fweeeee....fweeeee...yea as you can see i is hyper and i dont really have anything to say, but typing is keeping me from jumping around sooo yea...... oh darn i have to go to bed k bye
 shadowiekat · Mon Dec 27, 2004 @ 04:05am · 0 Comments |
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december 5, 2004
I want to look pretty today, but i think i look really bad. i mean its not like any one will care, its just i want to look good. i guess itd because i get to see ky today, but i really just want to look pretty. i probably shouldnt care though, i mean there is no waqy for me to look anymore pretty then i am.
but thats not the only problem, i mean i really have been thinking and the school year is almost half over and once this year is gone i dont get to see ky. Just thinking aobut it makes me miss him. i just really dont want use to loose contact. Because then we wont be able to stay as good of friends, once we dont talk. just thinking aobut not seeing kyle makes me sad. i really odnt want this year to end. If this year could last forever it would end too soon.
its painful to think about, leaving ky and all my other friends. it will be awful. im gooing to miss them all. well at least marcus and sara are ocming to my high school with me. also ellie might come but none of ym other friends are. other then those few people i will be all alone. i wont know any body and i will have no one to talk to or eat lunch with or........... well any thing.... those are the very few people i will know. i cant belive it. i willl miss every one so so sooooooooooo much. its not fair. My friends are all leaving me. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh its not fair i dont want them to leave me. its going to be awful. im oging to hate high school.
shadowiekat · Sun Dec 05, 2004 @ 07:41pm · 0 Comments |
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december 3, 2004
I feel bad, i just realized how fast this year is going by, i mean next year i go into high school and i loose contact with all my friends. Plus i mean ky isnt going to my school. I mean i miss him on the week ends i dont see him. what willi do when i don't see him every day? i cant stand to think about it. since im going to be busy w/ chool stuff, i wont be able to see him.
I know i will have fun in high schiool, but i wont see ky. it would be awful. i just think that we will start pulling apart. i dont want that to happen, but i cant really do much of anything. i can try to call more offten, but i know over time that wont be enough. Im really scared and i dont want to have to leave ky. i want to saty in 8th grade forever. that would be the best. i know i will move on to bigger and better things but i dont want to. i like the way things are right now.
im also tring to be the optomistic one, but i dont think im very optomistic about this. i mean i know it will end up bad either way. no matter what we do there wotn be anything that can really help. i just dont want to have both of us sooo cayught up in all of it. i want use to spend the time we have being happy and having fun. i dont want use worring and wasting time.
Not only am io afraid of loosing ky, im afraid of loosing all my other friends. i mean i think im going to be leaving like more then half my firends. i cant belive its oging to be hell.... i know that it will be exsiting but i mean i cant belive being soo alone. io dont want it to be like tiwas in 6th grade. then i made friends with people who i didnt like and who didnt like me. needless to say it turned out bad.
then again i have the chance to meet lots of good friends and make real good friendships with them, but its not likly i wont make friends with people i will learn to hate. i just hope it goes well
shadowiekat · Sat Dec 04, 2004 @ 02:59am · 0 Comments |
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november 30, 2004
i feel happy today... julia was asking about ky today and it got me thinking. i dont know what i've been doing but i have been going out with kyle for like i dont know 2 months, i havent really like kissed him... and before now i didnt care, but some how i dont know i just was thinking isn't it kind of weird. i mean it dosent bother me but like i just think it is kind of not normal... i dont kow and i mean it dosent feel wrong either... i mean it feels completly normal.
i just realized how much i love ky... i mean even though we dont kiss and stuff like that, we hug and i mean the feeling i get is just soo great... i mean i call him all the time and i mean it is starting to finnally feel more normal now. i mean at first it was kind of weird because we had just started talking again and then we went from not tlaking to being friends to going out min like a week.... it was way quick... but now im glad... at first i didnt really know what to think... btu i knew i liked it... and now im shure it was a smart choice.
shadowiekat · Tue Nov 30, 2004 @ 08:43pm · 0 Comments |
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november 29, 2004
GRRRRRRRR i hate brian!!! he was pushing people into my chest today... grrrrrr and i mean it was embarrasing and i mean grrrrr thats just down right wrong. i swear he will die..... i mean why would he do thta... he was being really mean today too. i mean plus making me hurt my knee and being all mena like that... grrrrr and on top of that i have drama this trimester. I hat drama... not so much drama as our drama teacher ms. wetmore. shes a b***h. i cant stand her. she drives me buttlogs. grrrrr shes fat and shes mean and she freakin assigned such stupid seats. i mean GAHHAHAHAHAHAH she dosent even teach use any thing. she just is loud and obnoixtiouse and down right mean.gagaggagagagagag i hate her. this trimester is going to be hell!!!
shadowiekat · Mon Nov 29, 2004 @ 08:32pm · 0 Comments |
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november 16, 2004
My dates are alll screwed up... i thought yeasterday was today. i will fix it later.
I wish brian would stop!!! he is being such a butt. i mean i know that it is just fun but i mean it bothers me. He just dosent know when to stop. alll the pushing and shoving is really getting on my nerves. i dont know what to do to make him stop. its like he dosent gte that it bothers me, or that he just dosent care. i mean A he dosent have the right to do it and B he knows it bothers us. i mean what else is there to make him stop. i mean we have told him to stop and maybe he got it today but i doubt it. he just one of those people who dosent get it. and them he comments on our clukmbsy ness whenwe fall. whyt would any one exspect you to be gracefull whehn you are shoved into some one? i dont think any one is gracefull when they are pushed at all. i mean why would you be grace ful if you were pushed. grrrrrrr i dont get Brian. hes just annoying.
but what is really anoying is ABK. i mean i know he is alll smart like but he is sooooo stupid. he was safty pinning his shoe together in class because his shoelace broke. i mean he could have just tied ti together again. i dont know why he didint think of that. i mean it would have been easyer. i mean he spent like 15 minuets trying to get it together. tiing it would have taken what like 2 seconds. its sooo simple and yet he didntn think of it did he. he wasted sooo much time. we could have been done with the project by now but noooo he had to safty pin his shoe. now i have to work during recess. thats not fair, that means i miss ensamble. he should have to do it alll by himself since its his fault we arent done. i mean i worked my butt off and what did he do didly squat. im never going to work with him again. unless its some thing he likes, cuz then he works hard. i mean he could do a freakin eassy on his favret soccer player in like 10 minuets. but he cant take 10 minuets to work on a school project. grrrrrrrr people are just being stupid.
not so much people as students in general. i mena i can only think of 6 people thatarent being stupid. sara me cindy yuqing catlin andrew paul. they are the only people i think have been smart today. they were being nice to me too. and well they are alll realy boring normally but today they were ok... i didnt feel like being around the stupid. but it wasnt easyt o get away from them... there was alot of stupid today. and when i say alot i mean alot. there was sooo much stupid if i wasnt careful i would be surounded by it.
shadowiekat · Tue Nov 16, 2004 @ 09:12pm · 0 Comments |
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November 16, 2004
i just got back from virginia. well and i was scared when i walked into school, Kyle got a very bad hair cut. i mean it looks soo well bad. im sorry but it looks soooo halariouse. it looks soooooo weird. i mean i sont think i will ever get use to it. it just looks horable. but dont let any one know that. heh. hahahahhahahaa i laugh at kyle for his bad hair. HAHAHAHAHA
Other then that i missed tons of school work and i missed eevery one. but no one else really changed or got a hair cut. but i mean kyle wowo his hair is bad.......... yea. i swear kyle always has the worse hair cuts. but thats not the point.
i am soooo exsited to be back with all my friends. i missed them a bunch more then they missed me. when i was gone i missed them sooo much. i8 wanted to go hug alll of them soooooooo tight when i got there. i was soooo exsted. you dont know how hard it is for me to leave my friends for like 5 days. IT WASNT EVEN A FREAKIN WEEK!!!!!!!!!! i mean thats pretty bad aint it. What am i going to do when summmer comes an di dont see then for munths at a time?? im going to cry when schools out.
Oh man i am really in for it. i mena i wont even see half of them bacause welll we go to high school next year. Oh man i wish i had the rest of forever with these guys. man i dont want to go to high school. but i want to stay with alll my friends... sooo if all my friends went to my high school i would be fine but thy arent so im sad now.
but i guess i will have new friends when i get to high school, but i want all my old friends in my clases too. i want alll my friends to be in my classes so im not alone. i dont like being alone. alone isnt goood for me. i cry when i an alone. i no like aloneness, its not healthy
shadowiekat · Mon Nov 15, 2004 @ 09:26pm · 0 Comments |
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November 6, 2004
Fwee ky whent to he movie with me like that. fweee... it was fun. We saw the village, it was kind of stupid. but i had fun. and it wasnt just us it was like me and Tah and leah, and ky. it was awsome... exsept ky was tierd and i was sooo hyper.and he was all in a cuddle mood, but i wasnt really in a coudlie mood. and like it was so odd. because i felt so different. i mean i felt really odd beause people wouldnt let me jump around but i couldnt lay down and cuddle w/ him. i wanted to but i just couldn't. but then leah was talking to us about how we should really kiss.
she said it was rreally odd how we would jsut be sooo close and that we didnt kiss. i mean we like cuddling and i mean i think we dont need to kiss. and frankly i dont want him to like french me or any thing. but you know he told leah i told him that i didt want to be kissed. that might be true but i didnt say it. i mena i told people when we were playing truth or dare that i didnt want want to kiss him as a dare. i mean it iddnt mean i didnt want to kiss... but i guess he thought that.
It dosent bother me though... i dont think that we really need to kiss any wyas, i mena i like little kissing on the cheek and neak and stuff but any more then that would acually kind of creep me out. i mean it not lik i think that we really need to kiss any ways. i like not kissing. im fine with it.
maybe i would like it, but i mean welll i say im ok with it. and im fien with waiting. but i do have my own like littl efears. i think that if we start french kissing and crap there is only one thing elese to do... get more physical. i mean i dont want it to go any farther then the way ti is right now, tlaking hugging cuddling and the acational kiss. but you know, it would be an awsome b-day present..... acually i dont want to think about it. at all.
shadowiekat · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 05:09pm · 0 Comments |
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November 5, 2004
Im being left out of some thing. i dont really know what yet, but i know its some thing. And whitney kyle and jeeny have new nick names that i dont know..... and i just feel sooo left out.like i think its some japaneese witch craft thing. but i cant say for sure. but i really hate being left out of things.
Of and you know my post yeaterday, well maybe not yeasterday, but about how i liked the way i didnt have any more cruushes... well for get that, i have another person w/ a crush on me. GRR i was just fine with having this many people with crushes on me an dnow i have another one... and this one is a real a**. i mean, he had a crush on me last yer... and i swear hes just doning this for kicks i mena he did it to me last year. and he is a seriouse player. before i might have belived him but now... i dont think so.
The worst thing of all is that hes in my french class and like he now sits at my table. like nto to sit at my table but to sit near his friends and like he invades our table. it suxs and im the only one who can do partner things w/ him. no one elese can stand being that close to him. they all think hes an a** too. and he dose this stupid thing were he writs note as tiny as possable on little peices of paper... like no one really notices. its like he has four other girl friends inthe room and hes afraid they are going to find out. It annoys the but out of me!!!
Its sooo stupid, and i just wish that i hadn't jinxsed myself.. but oh well. i adopted another kid... deven, well acually 2... devon and josh. fweeeee... that makes what 8... wow i have a ton of kids. im beating catie. she only has what five. that mean i win! haha i also beat tomahs.. no matter what any one elese says. im a winnner!.... and every one else is a loser
shadowiekat · Fri Nov 05, 2004 @ 08:52pm · 0 Comments |
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