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There are many things in this life that I don't understand like...
How something that you read when you were little turns out to be true, even though you were raised to believe that it was a fairy tale?
The proof stares me in the eyes that it's not as fairy-tale-ish as I once thought... I've learned over the three years that I've known my Master that not everything is as it seems and that you don't always know the person that you know best as well as you think you know them. Gaia Online hasn't been a big part of my life in over a year now, but I'm slowly getting back into the slight addiction to it.
Perhaps my addiction comes from my need to find the others like me. I've discovered some truths about myself in the past four months that I've been trying so hard not to believe...
My training as a Witch has progressed, I've shed off the "Wiccan" title I once used to describe myself, I'm not Wiccan by any means. My values are based of the ideals of what is now called Wicca, but my traditions and practices are anything but inspired by the so called creator of Wicca Gerald Gardner.
I've reconnected with one of my gods from my old lives, so now I have guidance in my life to know whether I'm going the direction I want to or not. The oddest thing about it is I've been fixated with him as a god since I read about him, but it has always felt right thinking about him and who he is and what he does...
I've discovered abilities that I never knew that I had, funny how you learn new things about yourself when you're put around people of a like mind with more experience than you isn't it?
My artwork has improved wonderfully, and I'm less critical of myself now since Master believes in me so much. It would be an insult to keep thinking of my artwork as trash and no good if there are people out there who love it and want me to continue to grow. I am just glad that my art makes someone happy.
You would never believe me if I told you what I know to be true... but if you're curious you could always PM me and coerce me into conversation about it...
The stars are alive,
though not all awakened,
more are still to come,
Be not afraid of me.
 Yuki_Yue · Mon Jun 19, 2006 @ 06:09pm · 1 Comments |
