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Every girl I know always turns out to have a problem in their life and I always find myself trying to solve it no matter how impossible it is. When will I learn to just leave other peoples problems along, I always end up screwing myself in the end dealing with such things. So why can I just not stop?

When will I find a decent girl who I do not have to hold together so completely I sacrfice my own health in order, to keep most of the women I date sane, it is begining to really eat at me and I need advice as to what I should do. I save so many people in what I do but for once will somebody save me from myself!!!

As i sit here alone and confused in this world, I begin to think about how love feels, not just a crush or lust but real love. I do not really know for i have never fallen in love and i believe to fall in love may be a big mistake, why you may ask. Well that is the hard part, for as love can bring joy and happiness, it can also cause jealousy, pain, heart break and there are more things that i care to not mention. But what is love, what is a crush and what is lust. in those terms i believe they all are a form of love, a crush being the first stage of a person having feelings for another person. Lust being the dark side of love being that a person feels love for the body and not the person themselves. Then there is true love, so here is what i think love feels like. When first fall in love with someone it feels like you have found your missing piece, then as love starts to deepen you start to devote yourself to the one you love, and last but not least the deepest love feels like you could not live with out the one you love. to those of you in love out there tell me if i am wrong ok.- I wrote this for personal reasons and for those who think they may be in love.(please comment ok)