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My favourite thing, a list
May 30, 2006 11:16 am
15 Things I love about summer:

1)Time to daydream
2)The smell of freshly watered grass
3)The fact that I "forget" about all my allergies ( I pay for it later)
4)Fresh fruit
5)Smoothies
6)The ability to eat healtier
7)More time to work out
cool The chirping of the birds in the morning
9)Advetures with friends
10)Summer clothes
11)Bright colours
12)My birthday ( I get to turn 16)
13)Lots of time to read
14)Finding the perfect summer book
15)Feeling infinite


The cliche summer entry.
May 30, 2006 11:10 am
I finally exist again. I'm existing in those few moments where things make sense and the world kisses you instead of kicks you. I call these times Summer. I know that might seem to be some sort of cliche "Oh My god! I'm finally out of school" teenage sentiment. But I assure you it's not. It's more of an escape from the existentialist driven philosophy I live by during the school year. It is my way of rejecting the dogma I've come to live by. This may contradict my, "You can't change your way of thinking because it's who you are," rant I give to almost everyone I meet. But I honestly don't care. I might be a hypocrite, and I might be a bit of a liar. At least for now I can admit it.

In a time and place where reality isn't real and the truth isn't true Summer is a sanctuary. I can finally breath again, I can finally feel again, and I can finally give up on caring again. I get to leave my tiny little world of fears and worries and be what I really am, a fifteen ( nearly sixteen) year old girl who loves.


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My love list.
People I love...
My Marco
Ramie
Kelli
Seth
Wesley
Travis
Justin
David
Chance (in an odd way)
Jade
Whit
Laura
Adam
Daniel
Jared
Angela
Erica
Trevor
Larissa
Chris
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-sigh-
I often find myself so insecure about who I am, I figured out why. It's because I'm not who I thought I was. I though of myself as a girl who needed to be shelltered and protected. I was cute, smart, funny, yet cold and heartless. During an argument with my beloved boyfriend I realized that I was living a lie. I broke down, then he helped to build me back up. I thought that I was not worthy of anything, I was nothing. I asked him what I was good for and he started to cry. When he did that my insticts kicked in, I started to hush him softly, tell him I love him, and told him everything was alright. It reminded me fo how I treat a child, and I told him that. Then he stated that was what I was good for, to care. That's why I'm here, to care for others. And I do need to be protected, but not to the extent I thought. I just need my sweet boyfriend there when I can't help myslef. I don't want him to keep me from falling, I want him to catch me when I do.


It takes me forever to make a new entry
It was about a week ago, fo rone second the world was perfect. I was out at some really horrible school dabce with Kat, Crys and Marco. It was time to leave, and it was freezing and raining a little. Marco gave me his jacket then wrapped his arms tight around my waist as we were walking. It felt so perfect to have him holding me tighly, not letting any harm come to me. God I love him...I love him I love him Ilove him.Our walk was filled with gentle kisses adn perfection. When we got to my car I asked him if he wished to get a ride home but he declined because his mum was coming to get him. I hated seeing him out there in the cold, it really killed me. I was so worried simply because that's who I am. But he got home okay, and I spent the rest of the night talking to him, telling him of my lovr for him.


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I'm hyper, I love Piro.. I finally got the yummy CD from him. It has a lot of really good(mstly rock) lovesongs. It makes my socks cry little emo tears of joy. -Dances around to "She is Beautiful" by Andrew W.K- I love.... my Piro, Taycey, Neko, Aurora Scillitaiigo, and my Gaian family. Yay..


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