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So, my mom called my uncle today and was talking to him about this text he sent her earlier. It said something about how this is God's pay back or soemthing. Being the curious family that we are she called him to find out what it was about and if everything was ok. He told her that he'd gone to the doctor and that the doctor told him he should be in the hospital. His blood pressure is really high and his liver isn't doing so good. He's just falling apart, but he won't go to the hospital or anything like that. He's excepted that he's going to die, but what about the rest of us. I'm not ready for him to go. I want him at my wedding. I want him to see his great neices and nephews. I want him be part of everything, but with the way things are going it doesn't look like that's going to happen. He told me my senior year that he would make it to my graduation and he did. He held out then for me, but I don't think he could do it if I asked him now. He's fading away and I can't do anything about it. I love him so much and I don't want to loose him. He's help me through so much, kept me from going insane, picked on my little sister with me. Just so much; and I know that I'll always have that, but that doesn't change that I'll miss him when he's gone. There will be a hole in my life, in my heart when he leaves this hell hole of a place. I know that it's what he wants, but I just don't want to let him go. I just want him with me for as long as possible. I love him and I always will. I think I'm gonna go for now. I don't want to start crying at the moment. I did that earlier. Have a good nioght everyone and a good day tomorrow. Blessed be.