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Chiodos, Every Time I Die, From First to Last |
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I saw Chiodos, Every Time I Die, and From First to Last last on October 7th, last Saturday. Atreyu went too but I don't like them so I didn't really watch them.
But it was AWSOME!!
I got a whole bunch of awsome pics of Chiodos, and not very many of ETID becuase it was starting to get dark and the mosh was getting worse. By the end of them I was almost passing out and/or throwing up. ><
I got out like after the 2nd song of FFTL's, because I was like freaking out. I even started crying, which is a first for me at concerts. I'd say I got beat up more at that concert than I ever have at any other one. So I didn't really get pics of FFTL, just like 2 or 3 crappy far away ones. After I got out the first time I crowd surfed again like 2 or 3 times.
After that, I met one of the guys from Chiodos becuase they were just hanging around the venue, and he signed one of my shoes. Then after the concert, me and Chris went out of the venue and walked around to the back where the buses were, got yelled at by security like 1351345 times, and waited forever. The Matt from FFTL came out, and everyone was like "RAPEEEEE TO THEEEE MAXXXX" Yeah... I really hate groupies. Somehow I've learned how to be cool around bands and not freak out becuase come on... they're just people, though it is awsome to meet them. And none of their fans are ever going to get in their pants. Anyway, he signed my other shoe, and I had him re-sign it becuase the first time it was with a silver sharpie and those suck and wear off, so the second time was with a black one. xD And he was really freakin' nice, too. Then he had to go bye-bye, and we waited longer and then Travis, also from FFTL, came out. He also had to sign my shoe twice, becuase the first time someone gave him a crappy pen. xD I asked him if I could take a pic of him, and holy crap he looks out of it, like WTFFFFF'S GOIN ON HEREEEE. xD But yeah he was really nice too. Eventually, Chris asked him if he hates it how every one crowds around him and all that s**t, and he said something along the lines of "I just look at it like, I'm in this position where I have to do these kind of things. I could be a total c**k-whore (yes, he said c**k-whore xD) and a total p***k, but why? what's the point of it? It's all about making people happy." Then when he left he said he'd find Sonny and Derek, and we waited a really long time for that. We started walking around becuase my mom was there and we were trying to find where she was parked, and when we were walking back to that spot we heard everyone screaming "SONNY AND DEREK! SONNY AND DEREK!" over and over, and I'm just like "You guys are just going to piss them off..." adn this one girl's like "Yeah, they just don't get it." So like a few minutes after that Sonny came out and was like "I was sleeping, so I don't know what's going on." So basically everyone woke him up with their little groupie chants. :/ And he asked what time it was and we're all like "Close to 11" and he's like woahhh. And this one chick wanted a kiss and he said "No, there's this girl I'm trying to impress, you know what I mean?" xD And then this guy's like "Sonny you're sexy" or something like that, and he's like "Thanks, if I saw you in a picture I'd say the same thing" and he did that thing where you point your finger and do that clicking noise. xD So I got him to sign my shoe, and I took a pic with him and I said thank you so much and he's like "Thank YOU so much" and yeah so basiclaly he was really nice too, even though all the dickheads woke him up. So then we left, even though I still didn't want to, but Chris wanted to for like an hour. xD
I got an FFTL wife beater (on the sign it said "wife puncher" x3) and an ETID shirt that says on the front "******** YEAH WE'RE GONNA PARTY TONIGHT (some of their song lyrics)" and it says Every Time I Die on the back.
Oh yeah! And I had to hide myd igital camera in my crotch becuase they didn't allow them in. xD
[EDIT] Ohhh yeahh. Craig, the singer in Chiodos, decided to do a bit of crowd surfing, and everyone was like "RAPPPEEEE, b***h!" Cos, you know... if they don't touch him they'll die. xD But that was just when he was standing on the baracades. When he actually crowd surfed, people were going crazy and he almost fell and he had this look on his face like "Uh oh, holy s**t!!" It was great. xD Then the singer from Every Time I Die stood on the barracades, and pretty much everyone went "RAPPPEEEE, b***h!" again. Yeah. Just thought I'd share that with you guys. xD
 Berts little black cat · Sat Oct 14, 2006 @ 08:40pm · 0 Comments |
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I need something to do.
Fridays at the Coffee Crickett are most likely gone forever.
And Thursdays and Saturdays suck, it closes early.
One of the points of the CC is to stay late and have a good time.
In my mind, anyways.
There's not enough shows to go to around here.
And I don't have a local hangout anymore.
And I'm always short on cash.
I need something to do... something that will keep me living.
Not saying I'll die or commit suicide... it's just... I feel like a teenager should have a life, y'know?
Summer's not about being cooped up inside.
And I like being out in public, it's fun and interesting.
I guess life really starts when you're 16?....
Or whenever you get to drive and/or have a job.
In other words, making money so you're not always short on cash, and providing your own means of transportation so that parental rules and laziness don't hinder where you want to be.
But hey, bikes are fun. biggrin
I just wish I had a good one. gonk
Then again, I probably wouldn't ride it everywhere.
I'm lazy.
And that's but another of my problems.
I seem to have so many. xd
Berts little black cat · Sat Jul 08, 2006 @ 05:50am · 1 Comments |
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hn vvvvvfsswhv8 mb9oe0p7;ufv/ |
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Everyone's so selfish.
Just becuase... so many stupid reasons.
I'm me.
So?
You're you, I don't give a s**t about it.
I'm the age I am.
So?
I'm still a person.
Stop treating me like I have no rights.
Sometimes the way you act...
It makes me so mad.
I wish you'd just go away...
But then where would I be?
I have no clue... I want you gone, but I can't have you gone...
I'm pretty sure you say nasty things behind my back just like I do to you...
Maybe not as much as me though...
I'm so horrible for that...
So many others have the same problem... yet find the energy to be passive...
I'm so horrible.
You say I'm selfish.... you say all I think about is myself...
I think about so much more...
Just becuase I don't spend all my hours on you, doesn't mean I'm selfish...
The only way I spend them on me is when I think how much I hate my self, how burdening I am, what a bad person I am in so many ways, how I want to make myself better yet I never actually do...
I don't think I'll succeed in life...
I don't even succeed at being myself and living my life....
The Bible is a fairy tale.
God may be real, but not in the way you all percieve...
Life was created through evolution.
So were people.
Adam and Eve did not exist.
I mean, sure, they might've... but not in the way you all think.
They may have been the first people... but not in the way the story's told.
It's a fairy tale.
God is testing us... maybe we're all part of a game.
I don't know.
I know that he's not as sweet as anyone thinks.
I want to die.
My art... sucks.
I can draw...... not with the feeling most artists have.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I wish I were anorexic.
I'd be happy.
I'd know when to stop.
I want to hurt myself so bad.
I need to get anger out, but on myself.
I wish I could hurt myself without anyone knowing.
I know one way I could really hurt myself.
I'd never have children.
I might not be able to already, I always have pains.
I'm so scared.
I don't want that to happen to me.
My mother will never take me to the doctor... no matter how sick I get.
No matter if I think I'll never be able to birth a child...
She'd just yell at me or brush it off and think of it as nothing.
She thinks she knows everything.
I've been so sick, it's hurt so badly, that I was crying...
She wouldn't take me to the doctor.
I was at my gramma's house that time, babysitting her, she doesnt like to be alone... I was talking on the phone to my friend.
Or used to be friend.
Dominic used to like me.
He used to be my best guy friend.
Then once he figured out I didn't want him, and once I got a boyfriend...
HE'S A ******** a*****e.
I don't get it.
I mean, I do...
But... I've told him... he should know...
He makes me feel like s**t.
I've thought about messaging him or giving him a call,
But it'll be useless.
He'll just be an a**.
I miss our friendship.
I can't talk to him anyway.
I miss so many things.
I'm not really sure exactly what though.
I wish I could go through with killing myself.
But I could never do that to him...
If I didn't love life so much, I would do it.
It's wierd-I hate life SO ******** MUCH.
But yet... I love it...
I don't know how that works.
It just does.
I'm just a normal person.
THere's nothing special about me.
I don't deserve the attention I get from him.
I'm surprised so many things haven't happened by now...
I don't want to die, I'm scared to... but I want to be hurt... I wish my mother abused me.
She does... just not physically.
I can't wait until she does... though, she probably won't.
She probably gets enough out of the emotional abuse.
I wish she was like some other mothers... I wish I was like some other kids...
I wish I could do whatever whenever....
I feel so bad when I hate her...
I'm horrible.
I'm so burdening... on her, on him...
She even tells me.
But then says she doesn't.
Right after she does.
God...
I wish I knew more answers.
Berts little black cat · Thu Jun 22, 2006 @ 11:12am · 4 Comments |
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Yeah so today, I passed out.
I don't really know why, I just got up and stretched, and the whoo-hoo I'm on the ground thinking "WTF"....
And I hit my head, so now the headache won't go away.
Chris thinks it's something serious and he got all paranoid.
It's only the 2nd time it's happened, and the last time I went to the ER and they didn't say anything about it.
But I did look it up on the internet, I guess it could be something serious, but probably not.
I could have low blood pressure.
I never knew you could have low blood pressure.
But meh.
If I do, at least I'll stay thin.
Berts little black cat · Tue May 30, 2006 @ 05:05am · 0 Comments |
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You may think I'm worthless. I may be just a teenager. 15 isn't a lot, at least not in years. Yet 15 pounds makes a huge difference. If I lost 15 pounds, I might be considered unhealthy.
I'm not immature. Although I act like a child at times becuase it's fun, it doesn't remind me of anything bad.
I know a lot more than you think I do, despise how little I socialize and voice my thoughts.
Usually when I do they distance me from others.
I'm only 15, but I know the meaning of love.
Our love is not fake, we won't break up over summer and we won't tire of eachother.
We fight, but even if we don't fix it, we move on and say it doesn't matter.
You may think that we're too young, we're just in lust, we're stupid.
We're not.
He knows more than half the others.
I can't socialize right anymore, people just aren't as fun.
I get pissed, I brush their words off my shoulder, I shut them out.
I feel bad becuase I can never do anything with my old best friends.
They don't understand anyway.
No one ever does.
Life is just an excuse for God knows what.
It's pointless.
But you find something or someone you love, and you just can't help but live.
He's the only one that can make me happy, I'm sorry I'm so selfish becuase of that, I'm sorry I'm a human being.
He thinks I would just throw him away with the snap of a finger, but I don't understand his logic.
I'm not so fickle.
We've been through so much, we're so close, we're attached at the hip.
He means the world to me, I wish he knew that...
My mother and I aren't as close as we used to be.
I don't know what happened, maybe it's all just realization.
Sometimes I hate her so much, I wish things that I know I really don't want.
I guess she's mentally abusive.
But I won't do anything, becuase I'm afraid of being taken away.
It's not like I'm actually getting hurt, right?
I don't want children.
I see how much of a burden I am to my mother, and it turns of all my thoughts of having one.
I think of how special it would be to have a child with my love... it would be ours, that's what would make it special.
But I honestly don't think either of us would make very good parents.
When I'm older and able to have a child, I might change my mind.
I could be totally different than I am now.
But I'm glad I don't have to worry about that stuff now anyway.
I'm still a child myself.
I have no rights.
I don't even know where I'm going with this.
There's just so much running through my head.
He's the only one who doesn't treat me like s**t.
He's the only one who knows how I feel, or at least tries to.
He's the only one who cares about me.
He's the only one who can do anything for me.
He's the only one who will do anything for me.
Berts little black cat · Sun May 28, 2006 @ 10:33pm · 2 Comments |
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I made this quiz during the Gaiaversarry.
I like it, so I posted it here.
Fill it out!
<3
1]When was the last time you went to the mall?
2]Why is an orange called an orange but a cherry isn't called a red?
3]How many people 18 and under are in your entire family?
4]How many pets are in your entire family?
5]What about Gaia draws you to it?
6]If you could rename any colour, what colour would it be and what would you rename it?
7]What kind of decorations do you adorn your bedroom with?
8]What is the highest number?
9]How long do you think it would take to count to that number?
10]How come most of our words are translated only to our language but some are straight for another, like Greek or Spanish, without being translated?
11]Why do schools have different rules than modern society?
12]Why are facial expressions and gestures and whatnot different in America than in other countries?
13]No matter what country you are in, don't you think you'd smile if you felt happy, and frown if you felt mad?
14]What form of art would you say you pursue?
15]Where would you like your life to be 10 years into the future?
16]Do you think it will be like you imagine?
17]If not, why not? If so, why so?
18]Do you have any mental illnesses?
19]Do others think you have a mental illness?
20]Would you like to have a mental illness?
21]Why is Bill Gates so rich?
22]Do you know anyone that you think could be the next Bill Gates?
23]Do you have any strange expectations that appear normal to you?
24]Do you wish you could be someone that most people would think odd?
25]Have you found an "outlet" for your emotions?
26]Is it a positive one?
27]Do you enjoy the simpler things in life, the things that are just naturally there for us?
28]Do you enjoy the complicated things in life, the things that are well thought-out and manipulated by humans?
29]Was this quiz wierd? Did you enjoy it?
30]Did you earn any items while filling this quiz out?
Berts little black cat · Sun Feb 19, 2006 @ 08:24am · 3 Comments |
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ZOMBIES ARE GONNA EAT MEH!!!! x.X |
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My grandpa died on January 16th.
Not many people know, I think just Christina, Kegan, Chris, and Sharla.
But anyway.
The service was last Saturday, Feb. 4.
Anywayyysss
We went to look around the funeral home place, and we went to look at the mausoleum.
It was the first time I'd been in a mausoleum.
whee
And as we were walking around it, the ceiling creaked really loudly.
It was odd.
Then, later that night at home, the wall of my room did that too.
Our house creaks every now and then, but not that loudly, and not in the spot that it did that time.
It was wierd.
o.o
Yeah that was pretty pointless.
But whatever!!!!!!
>w<
Berts little black cat · Thu Feb 09, 2006 @ 11:14pm · 2 Comments |
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