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Please God
Dear God...
I wanted to ask you a question.
I wanted to know...
Were you ever planning on lifting my depression?
I wanted to tell you the truth...
Lots of people have it better than me.
I wanted you to know,
I'm tired of not being able to truly see.
I'm sick of things not going my way.
Something just has to give...
I need something to help me,
I need some way to live.
Lots of people have it worse than I,
And I understand that so ever clearly.
And I guess that all I'm asking,
Is to hold someone very dearly.
I don't mean to sound selfish,
But I suppose that's how I seem.
But life is just so very hard,
When you're the only member of your team.
It's tough when you're all alone,
And no one understands.
I might as well not be here,
I can't stand these changing lands...
God, I tried to kill myself.
I've tried every way that I can think.
But I just keep living on,
While my heart slowly starts to sink...
I want it to end here.
I want it all to leave me alone.
I want to go away,
And venture to the very unknown.
But I've tried too hard, I guess.
Nooses and guns, razors and rivers...
None of those things worked,
All they did was give me shivers.
The noose was loose,
And the gun wasn't loaded.
The razor wasn't sharp enough,
And when I tried to drown, I floated.
I don't know what else to do,
Because pills don't work at all.
I tried to take them once before,
But what happened, I don't recall.
People think I'm weird,
'Cuz I'm always trying to end it.
But they don't really get it,
They haven't done any of this s**t.
Please just end it all.
Please, God, make it stop.
Please just let me fall,
And please just let me drop...


and this is why i dont belive in god. because it never stops...... ever always pain.. and i just wont die, have tryed.


Skeletons in the closet
I open my closet door
The one that's in my head
I take a peek inside
As I sit here on my bed.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
That little peek shows me much
I almost close the door
But something inside me makes me think
That I wanna see much more.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see my mother
Always wanting me to grow
I see her frown
She thought I didn't know.
I see my mother
Her dreams all got broken
Because I couldn't do anything right
So many words were left unspoken.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see my father
His stern face without a grin
How he'd always hit me
I guess I could never win.
I see my father
And when he wasn't around
I could cry all I wanted
Oh how he hated the sound.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see my brother
Always calling me names
Telling me I'm nothing
But Dad treated him the same.
I see my brother
Sometimes I thought he cared
But I guess somebody had to
My dad was hardly there.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see my first friend
Ten years older than me
I always hung around with him
So why couldn't I see?
I see my first friend
He cut me to the bone
When he decided to jump
And leave me all alone.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see that girl
The one who wanted a friend
At first I tried to avoid her
But it was pointless in the end.
I see that girl
With the funniest little laugh
Oh how bad these memories hurt
All these feelings from the past.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?
I see myself
Alone in a crowded room
But people always see one thing
I'm not just dark and gloom.
I see myself
My heart behind a wall
Go ahead and sit there
Sit and watch me fall.
Everyone has skeletons in their closets
But what if they came out
What if everyone knew
What your life's all about?

by beserker16
on Quizilla


thin red line
A thin red line
Across my wrist
blood comes out
runs down my arm
The color so beautiful
So full of life
The crimson
against my pale wite skin
Its just one line
One tiny little line
got everyone afraid
and everyone concerned
It's not like they really care
They're just "upset"
to make you feel "better"
when really they just make it ten times worse
Just one little thin red line
across my wrist
blood comes out
and runs down my arm

by xXGerardWayXxlover7


#1
For The World To See
Her tears shimmer in the pale light
Her porslen skin smooth and bright
Huddled in the corner
Silenced by fright
Her life like hell
The fighting never seases
Can she escape before it gets physical
Her frail body can't handle much more
Pain consumes her skelatal figure
Chills and the cold creep up her boney spine
Hugging herself to keep the warmth from leaving
Shivers when the wind blows through the broken window
Staggers to her feet
Limps to the window
The broken glass reflects a picture
Looking back at her is the angel
The one in her dreams
The one that saves her
The angel that takes the soul but leaves the body for the world to see
Her hand reaches out
Skinny fingers places upon the glass
She can't help but sob
When's her angel coming
Soon enough
For she didn't know her fate
Outside she went
Pondered on about the angel
A shot fired
Bullet piercing her once beating heart
Her last breath placed a smile across her face
Fallen to the ground
She layed for the world to see
Blood soaked her shirt
What a messy sight
That angel appeared
A replica of her
Except the angel had full feathered wings
While hers were ripped and tattered
She tried to flap her broken wings
But struggled to get but a few inches off the ground
The angel so sweet and kind
Reached out a caring hand
She grasped it desperatly
In the air they flew
Took a tour before heading above
All for the world to see


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