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Lost Thoughts.
Just some things that pass my mind at random or things that won't leave it until I get it out.
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I've always wondered if karma really works.. I haven't seen much results yet for something i did good buy mostly for things i've done bad.
I don't want to complain but I kinda really wish that it would like help me like a lot soon. Its that my life feels as though its spiraling down and down and that its not gonna stop until like my skin rips from my skin because of teh speed.
I have helped people and felt good about it.. but i feel as though something is missing from helping someone. I wonder if expecting something good for me is what keeping something good happening for me.

Karma.. If i could and was allowed to request something... It would be that I would be happy with myself.. forgotten the worst of my past...and moved on with my heart and had it healed.


Dungeon and Dragons field.

Desert.
Far into this Desert is a Palace of White marble with a population of at least a 1000. Those who would dare live in the desert seek this palace to live at. It was built on and around an ossis. The palace is very beautiful with towers that round up at the high tops and embreded with gems around as the brace. There was at least 5 towers that stood tall. The one in the middle stood the tallest and the largest as it was the main hall for the king's meetings with his subjects. Each tower hosted a King's chamber, a queen's, a princess's, and a prince's chamber. All and each had at least 150 people waiting on each member of the royal family. Outside the palace white marble walls wrapped around the kingdom and gaurds stood atop these walls at every 10 feet. It was a very well gaurded place. Houses were built tight against these walls and makets were made towards the middle. The streets stretch as far as they are allowed and those too are made of white marble. But all in all in the middle of this land and in front of the palace, a water pool was place for everyone to drink from and do whatever with...(in thier own house if bathing and such) that didn't ruin the water.. Why woul dthey want to.. This pool of water had special properties.

When you look down you could see your reflextion instead of your shadow because the slaves keep these grounds so clean. But they enjoy thier work since they think they work for a king of awsome power and respect that matches the God. They didn't fear the king but loved him as did all his subjects in this kingdom. But then one dark day a bandit made his way into the palace and kidnapped the princess and made off without a trace.

Outside of the kingdom the lands were harsh and anyone who was reckless would most likely die out in the desert. The kind and his subjects were deafly worried about the young princess outside of the kingdom. If too long they would think she was dead.

The king made a reward the was so large that everyone outside of the kingdom and in other kingdoms would now try to send knights and adventers out into this desert to claim the reward. Those who weren't the kings subjects and didn't know of his glory would pull the kind of stunts of bringing a fake or real even, princess, even when they didn't even kniow what the princess looked like. They were beheaded on the spot for trickery. The king weeped for his daughter, the subjects were becoming sadder each day. Would the princess be returned?

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Back out into the desert the bandit had a hideout next to a small ossis but a liveable one where he made a home. The princess was heathly and all because this bandit was in love with her. He took care of her in his attempts and tried to make her fall in love with him.. but not with spells or such.. He wanted real love from her.

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what was weird and good about the bandit's hiding spot and the fact that he was at a opened ossis is that it was hidden by a temple.. Abanded of people but filled with monsters. Oddly this wrapped around the bandit's home in a way like the kingdom's walls did for the city and palace. He had also placed traps for those who tried to get in as well. He could be just as well gaurded in this area without even trying as the palace.


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>_>
V-day is over.. and I was right!!
u.u It sucked big time.. made me sad.. i was alone with myself and wasn't having a happy day.
I got stuck somewhere because of a blizzard that wouldn't go away for 3 days.
after a while i lost someone for some stupid reason and now I'm hanging out with my best friend... I feel awkward i hate it.
I need my life back and to move forward... March!!!


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*Eyes get shifty*
I really hate Valentines day.... my nerves rock to much to the thought of either being stood up or getting something ubber awsome... I try to keep my hopes low so I don't get hurt.
Last year I gotten lucky since I stayed in one place long enough for someone to know me.
For once.. all other times its like.. no one knew me so know one gave me gifts on that day.. much less even said anything to me.
I would head home and go straight into my closet. I don't have one this year.
>_>

Rose are red and violets are a weird blueish purple.
My love for you is deeper then the blue oceans and stretches farther then the moon.
I hope that soon we'll meet one day and make every whisper come true.
Until then I remain cold as ice in winter worst and hold off emotions to keep those deathly scars away.
Will my prince come some day and save me from my thorns of pain that covers the stem of a beautiful life?


Ewww I feel so weird


I keep getting health problems that won't go away. crying
More and more theres always something wrong with me. Right now i'm taking medication for what might be a bladder infection. Then I have these weird little bumps on my body that made me freak out and wonder what the hell they were. Went to the Doc.'s and they didn't know.. so I go today when they have a Doc. that knows a lot of things and she tells me the bumps are a virus and I freak out in my head then she tells me that they're just like pimples and just pop them or leave them alone and i'm like thats it!?.. Thats all there is to it!?..
Yea.... stupid bumps.. ********...
Let's see now bout the Bladder there problem... well like I said.. taking Med's for it. But oh my flippin ******** god its a pain in the you know what!
Then there are the breast. One side is a size D and the other a C or B.. I'm lopsided but oh guess what.. its normal.... until it causes freaken back problems or else makes it harder for me to breath. But then again that problem might not be from teh Boobs.. It might be from the fact that I gotten into a Car Crash and never been checked for any problems after that. Yea... Its catching up to me. Oh god I feel like I would die at any moment.. or just fall into a coma... which I wouldn't mind if I had a prince to kiss me awake. xd
I just wish that the problems would go away but the only time they do that is when your dead.. dead as a door nail sticking way in the wall.. can't do anything to ya. Can't do anything for itself.
Let's see any other problems.. well I was treated for a Disease which is gone now gladly enough. heart
Ya know I can't been forward.. Hurts to much.. feels like my heart will fall out if I go to far.. Can't run without being winded... damn i'm fat.. 175.5 as of today. My goal weight is 120lbs. That would be wonderful if that happened over night. Oddly enough I look healthy and well.. not so fat as others who way about the same where their belly sticks way out.. my weight is in my thighs and stomach and a bit in my arms... soon my neck eww there. But because of the weight its slowing me down so i'm working on losing it but every time I do something that is pose to loose weight I gain more. and i'm like WTF. Fairy God mother... Work your damn magic and make me fit and healthy!


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