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It's weird to know, that you'll never know when you'll die, or when you'll be choosen to go to heaven. Its weird. I'm still native of death, and still scared then ever. Many people live life, not saying once to their love ones or friends " i love you, take care of your self". Life is too short, you never know if someone who you care about or know might die in a accident. Its all weird to me. two days ago, i think. i heard that one of my friend had died in a car crash. They said it was drew, i kind of played dumbed to who or which drew died. unfornately it was the one that i grew to know. i didn't know how to react. didn't know if they were playing with me or not. so i kept it inside, until i was sure that this person name drew was the guy that i know. its so weird. even though i wasn't close to him. i was just simply friend. it feels weird to know that someone had died. someone that you know had died. thats when i couldn't hold it in. i never got to say good bye. i haven't even talk to him for so long. I feel bad, i wanted to atleast talk to him one last time and when its time to leave to say " take care of your self and be safe". Knowing that i was assuring that he will be safe for another day. Its wierd. like i said.i remembered when me and him were talking about how we wanted to die. and know that he is dead.. its weird... and , how he wanted to take me to prom. (even though i still think he was pulling my leg). How for christmas he wanted a kiss from me. It seem like yesterday that all this happened. Its strange, having flash back. Its strange to realize that he's not here any more, that he's no longer on earth, in san diego. No longer with the people who deeply care about him. it makes you think, how perious life is, how easliy someone or something can be taken away from you from a instant that life, shouldn't be taken so lightly. That you should live life as if its your last, live life without no regrets, live life as if you'll live a lifetime. if only people think that. i dunno. i dunno. what to say. i am bad at reacting to things.
im still in state of shock, that he is gone. Even though i wasn't close to him. i just knew him. Its just a shock that someone that you grew to know, someone who you got attach to, someone who you spent everyday with. will no longer be with you to do things, no longer to laugh at your sily jokes. You know. i just wished that i could of talken to him before he had left.

why do people do such foolish stuff. Why can't people learn that drinking and driving is not safe. When will people learn that their action can cause a life. Can leave a mother without a son, an brother with an brother. a father without its son. Why can't we be responsible enough, to know that you shouldn't drive when you are under the influence. The million adveristment wasn't enough to get through people brain? Was the commerical break after your favorite break wasn't a clear message. Why not learn it the easy way, then learning the hard why.

How will you feel, to know that you've taken someone life away because of your stupidity.?
Rest in peace
drew.