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I am now a moderator of two guilds, and I am liking the power^^ ehheh.
Yeah, I try to do a good job...
Gaia has been abboying me a bit, what with all the...annoying people.

i woke up in a good mood but, i cant help but be somewhat...bahish. because everything i do, seems unreal....like, this is just a virtual world.
nothing seems real to me, nothing seems clear. its as if this is just an illusion in fornt of my face, but then again, not even my face is there. its as if all the solids things i touch arent there. why does the sun hurt my eyes when i stare at it? why do i smell the air? i dont think any of it is really happening. so...why do i go on? there...must be a reason. some sort of reason, because, theres no point in playing the virtual game that is our lives. if its truly not there, i want to find out what is real. people might think that this world is real. but i cant seem to feel as though something is not enough. and that its not coming to me in this world, in physical form. its something else, and i dont know what. maybe ill find it in death. maybe, deathisnt really dying. maybe its finishing up the virtual game.

yay! ive really wanted to learn japanese for a long time now, and someone on gaia has offered to teach me!
its really awesome, because its alot easier to learn when you have someone helping you...goddamned books went in one ear and out the other.....
i listen to a lot of japanese music...i wonder if thats helping at all?
UTADA HIKARU ALL THE WAY BABAY!