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How can this be? Many things are going all wrong!! I'm starting to lose fath in poeple I thought I could trust. Is It just my luck that I don't have people to fall back on? Was there ever really someone I could look to? Is there really that one person out there for me? Can I even be loved by mankined? Or am I to have a life of total damn-nation!!! There will never be room for me in anyone heart. It has been places here to help me with these feelings; I have taken meds to make it go away but it never does. Its like theres someone in my head that just cant get over the fact that people hate me. It tells me that thats why I can never fined love... because I'm the one to ******** it up. I keep telling it I already know that but it's like I cant help but make me feel even more like s**t then I already am. And as many times as I tell myself that im better off alone... I juat cant stand to be alone.. I feel I have the need to be here that people I love are getting ******** over because I'm not there.... so they may hate me, but i'm going to be there cause I feel they need me there, or they my not know what to do with themselfs.
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