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I can not hide
this shattered heart
the first time I cried
it ripped my apart

Its really hard
to try not to think
I bet you don't feel
The same way about me

I never see you
any more
and that is why
our bond has torn

every minuite
Of every day
Of every second
that Im awake

I think of you
and how happy I was
But it feels like a dream
I knew it because

you said you liked me
but whats the point
when my heart is breaking
And Iv'e got aches in my joints

I'm constantly tense
I'm constantly shaking
I'm constantly sad
I'm constantly breaking

And all I can think about
Is how I died
over and over again
every time I tried...

thinking about you.

So, I like this guy named eric. And he likes me. We met at camp...very very long story but that is for another time. ANYWAYS, its kind of hard to see him because he doesn't go to my school. Up until a few weeks ago we would both go to this thing called TNL...but he got in trouble with his mom because he did something in school. I don't remember exactly what it was but it was something like he didn't want to gat a zero on an assignment so he forged a signature and then he got in trouble. So yesterday, at tnl (tuesday night live) his friend came up to me and said
"do you still like eric?"
"yah,"
"well he wants to break up with you because he isn't gonna see you for a while because he is still in trouble. But once hes not in trouble any more he wants to get back together with you."
" *sign*okay."
I was sad, but I understood why he did that. Plus, since won't see him for a while anyways it isn't a big deal.
I just HOPE and pray that he is just doing this to go out with another girl.
I would call him, but he is grounded from phone.
I would send him e-mail, but whats the point when he is grounded from the phone?
I don't exactly know what to do or think.
please help me!