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...I..I can't say what I've become..I don't know me anymore..my shattered heart..is slowly mending...my eyes...are full of a hatred and rage I've never seen in them...let me be..I tell the demon..but the demon is me.I am a demon on the inside..a creature of purest hatred and loathing....I want to let you all blled...those crimson tears of pain that I've bled myself..let my hatred become your burning energy..let me be whole....

Thats Mynew characters intro..he's the only son of Lucifer..and mentored by Dameon himself...he is a deon Child...his name is Lucrid

Hmm you know what I've learned..you can't really trust anyone can you? In the end they always betray you....even if you thought that they were one of your most trusted friends.Jealousy is one of our most evil of emotions.Now I'm not saying that this particular traitor is jealous of me..but why would they say something like that about me? Then stupidly tell one of you best friends...man thats just low.Especially if that person happens to not only have been bitching to you about how people talking about them behind thier back....then they do the same? Just..no it's not that I care if this person is mad at me...but really is it something I did..maybe we just weren't meant to be friends.. I don't know...all I really have to say is that I've always told them how I felt..you know been as real as I could be around them...then someone does this..man thats just real low...real low.......

Man I'm so frustrated ,this boy asked me if I had a boyfriend and thanks to SOMEBODY I can't say whether I do.Since this ceartain person can't say if I'm his or not because HE is too involved with his whatevr..how can you say I love you to someone that you aren't even with...or maybe we are together ..damn I'm so confused.Man I suppose I'll have to ask.. *sighs*And no one is even gonna read this,I need advise now!!!!

Here you left me here so it's here I'll stay
You said you loved me but I guess not in that way
Is love so hard to give that you'd take it away
But as I said here you left me so here I'll stay.....

The darkness..it's like a friend
I hold it close to me like its my own
In the darkness I know myself,because I've lived there for so long.......
Yet you are the light that shines through the deep dark clouds of fear hate and shame
You are my protector my sheild and I'll always love you the same
I can count on you my lovley,dark prince,my headragged general
I lean on you when there is no where els to go but down
For it is with you that I found myself..and now that you've found me
I can never let you go..I need you as you need me
Never let me go dark lover and I'll hold on forever
And that is a promise I plan to keep

-For my love

Mai walked down the road her eyes on the now starliit sky,she sighed "man how long do I gotta keep this act up....I hate this village its such a drag,I dont have time to babysit these idiots man this is such a drag"she said to herself putting her hands in her pockets and taking her gaze off the sky to look at the well lit home down the road where her litle brother Niko and father would no doubt be waiting for her to return she could almost hear his voice where were you huh I had to wait here and babysit Niko while you were out prancing around.....if your mother were here then she would counter with a you are such a drag shes not here so dont even threaten me with her like an idiot then shed storm up to her romm and be angry the rest of the night till Kilik came to get her "man this village is full of idiots"she said to herself as she headed home.

When she entered her house she saw her father sitting on the couch next to Kilik a suprised look came over her face "Kilik what are you doing here???? Dad whats going on"she asked she knew her father didnt approve of her being with a jonin, her father sighed "well I wanted to talk to the both of you about your relationship" he said Mai narrowed her her eyes "what are you serious??" she asked "you .....hold on what do you mean our relationship"she asked sceptic.Her Father stood and gestured for her to sit next to Kilik,she did so,when she sat Kilik looked over at her a scared look in his eyes Mai grinned "chill he wont hurt you I promise" then she winked and turned her attention to her father