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hello people. you guys probably won't ever read this or something but whatever. so yesterday DmD went to the movies. we saw waitress, it was a cute movie, but kind of sad, too. me and T held hands throughout almost the entire movie, i'm so happy for that. but we made a deal that if he held hands first and hugged me first, i would kiss him. but we never got to kiss because he didn't want to kiss in front of D, but she wouldn't turn around for more then one second which obviously didn't give us enough time to even blink. so yaa, there's my story. i was really upset. actually, we all were. all of us were crying. we are little crybabies. but whatever. love em♥ mrgreen soo tonight i'm supposed to go swimsuit shopping for Gabs's pool partay tomorrow!! i can't wait!! except, i'm supposed to wash the dishes soon. which i really don't want to do....umm.....crap. whatever. i'll figure that out later. sooo, T insists i'm beautiful. and i don't think i am, and he made me list all the things about myself (appearance wise) that i don't like, so i did, and he said Lie for every single one of them. so i'm not sure how i feel about that yet, but he also said that his mom, sister, and even his dad said i'm really pretty. which makes me really happy. but, i'm pretty sure that i'm in fact, not pretty....oh well. i went to Daily Scoop today, which is cool. I got to see Hugh and his mohawk. ya! woot go mohawks! he still hasn't been grounded for it, surprisingly....!! hahaa xp i miss everyone sooooo much! i miss sitting at lunch with all my friends at the table, and i miss getting to see everyone everyday. but upon the other hand, i'm so glad i don't have to deal with getting up every morning and being tired as hell, even though i still kindof am. i don't have to deal with horrible nasty people at school, because it's summer, and i loooove the heat♥♥♥♥ except right now, it's cold. gonk that makes me very very sad. another reason to be sad, one of my friend's cat had to be put to sleep. i cried so hard. i hate it when things like that happen, it's so depressing!! there are soo many things in the world that can make me soo sad or sometimes happy. like T. i love him soo much♥ i love how he wants me to call him just to hear my voice, i love everything about us. i wish it could last forever. well, it will. but, i don't know. i just don't want to lose anyone, i would die. i can't stand death. aw man! crap, i just started tearing up THINKING about it! i'm so unbelievably overemotional!! but i guess that's okay, i love crying and feeling that sensation of hot tears racing down my face. it makes me feel better about things like life. for some reason i just thought of butterflies. butterflies are one of the things in life that make me really happy, i don't know why. i think it's because i'm soo fixed by their wings. and how they can fly and they're so free to float from flower to flower leading themselves where ever they desire to go. making their own path in life, and to soar to new heights. i love that. i'm so envious of things with wings. i want them, too. i want to be able to do something miraculous, just like any other teenage girl. maybe i'll forget my fantasies and leave them behind, but for now, those are the things that keep me company in the dark of my room in the middle of the night. well, i should be going now.

nice to know you guys are never ever going to read this....but whatever.
love yaa,
SiD♥

PS. aka-Ducky ( for Cubby♥), Siddy, Sidra, Sidge.