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I'm going to camp tomorrow! It's so soon! Ah! *flips out* I'm going to Love it though!

I am wonderful. I am the picture of perfect health. Absolutely Nothing is wrong with me. I am going to have a wonderful day. Something will happen to make me laugh. School is a breeze. I can do this. There is no pain. My classes will be easy. I can do anything. Everyone loves me. And those who don't ...Screw them. Who asked their opinion anyway? I am Awesome. Nothing can possibly go wrong. Today will be as beautiful as yesterday. No one can bring me down. There is No Pain. I am perfectly happy and healthy. There is No Fear. I am strong, Brave and Happy. Today will be a perfect day. Everything will go right. I am Strong. I am wonderful. School is Wonderful. I can do this. I Can do this. heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart

I had the most fantabulous day today!

I am just going to stop stressing. I'm going to be okay, I can get through this. Positive self-talk Lona, you can do it!

I threw up in class. Just when I thought I was better... gonk

The other post with these lyrics won't come up, so I have to post them again, because it's stuck in my head.

If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfeild

If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away
But I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

This is perfect for what I'm feeling.

I am in pain! You'd think a few hours would help!?! Oh no, they just frieggen made it worse! I ache all over. Maybe I just slept in an awkward position... All I know is, school is going to be miserable today.

I had to sleep on the floor. Every part of me is in pain.
Other than that it's a lovely day. I got to see lots of relatives I hadn't gotten a chance to see in a while. We went to a chinese buffet for a family dinner. The food was delicous. I tried mussels for the first time. They were chewy, but tasted good. I love sampling everything in chinese buffets. It all tastes so good I get fat just trying everything!