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my feelings, hopes, and failures
Conrad, Angie, and......me
confused
jealous
dont give a s**t

******** ******** ******** ********! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

if you figure ths out then write me.......


If one more person....
IM NOT DATING HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Depressing
all these peoms are by me....... Dont take credit for these please..... Im upset as it is... I lost something irreplaceable and oh so precious......... if you are the person im talking about and you find it in your heart.... im sorry and i meant it when i said i love you.....

I Tried

I tried so hard to remember how hard it was not to cry.
Then I looked in your eyes:
And it explained to me every reason why.
I tried to remember all the happy times we had.
Then I thought all these tears only made me sad.
And I tried to hide my feelings by acting mad.
Theres a time and a place for sadness and tears.
But clearly I really dont think its here.
I tried to remember how the look in your eyes.
Made everything so clear:
Then I remembered maybe things would be better off:
If I just wasnt here.
Maybe Id be happier if I tried not to cry.
But believe me when I tell you:
The worst feeling in the world is having to say goodbye.
Im trying my best not to be so sappy
But baby you were the only thing in the world,
That made me happy.
It starts with a hug. Ends with goodbye.
It starts with happiness. Ends when I cried.
You always told me we'd never come apart.
But if you were just going to break my heart.
Why didnt you just tell me from the very start.
I tried to remember that look in your eye
It reminded me every reason why I ever tried.
I tried to remember in my world of black and white.
You were my colored picture.
But when you made me cry...
A little note said 'fix her'
Somehow I thought it would be like this...
When it started with a hug and ended in a kiss
Even though you made me happy, you were the reason I sat here and cried.
Then I sat and remembered...
You were my every reason why.
Every word you said I took to heart.
But believe me when I say
You should of told me it was a lie from the very start.
The best part of be'lie'veing someone
Is the 'lie.
Because even if yu trust them
Even if they look you in the eye
Even if they tell you
'Baby I'll never make you cry'
What they really meant to say was...
Goodbye






Broken Thoughts



I've always wondered about my very exsistance but then I look at the creatures around me and see that they don't have a purpose either but they keep on living for the ones that need them most. I've also wondered about the tears we shed; If we cry for no reason, will we run out of tears in the moments we need them? I think I've found my answer... as long as our souls are flooded with sadness... ...we will never stop crying... ...and we will drown in our sorrows.


Weep



trying to live to learn but all fails at times. looking back at what ive said and things ive done hurts so bad seeing you in torturous pain kills me inside i love you my dear you are so precious to me dont think i dont know that things you weep for i have seen them all...


We Danced



When we danced the earth stood still As we passed in review. Your eyes meant for only me, And mine for only you. We danced on highest mountain tops, We danced on desert sand. We danced through bitter valleys low And you would hold my hand.
We danced through life, and held each other Never far apart For we both held the only key That fit each others heart. But then you had to go away For reasons still unknown. And now I’m left on stage To dance the final act alone. I’ve never been a wicked girl, But still I’m not a saint. So I must strive for goodness Lest my soul, I further taint. Where I will take your hand in mine, And we will dance again.


Little Things



little things can make you laugh
little things can make you cry
little things can make you wanna scream
and little things can make you wanna die
little things can seem little
when there are not so little at all
little things like hearing
'I hate you'
can sometimes make you fall
little things like little hands
that reach out to touch you
can make the the little things
in life so wonderful
instead of black
and deep deep blue


blue oh so blue


roar!!!!!!!
ok i love him ok...........
so ******** all you ppl who say im not allowed to love just cause im smarter than and uglier than most ppl..... ******** you!!!!!!!!!!!


for all of my friends...
if you are my real friend then you are reading this.. if not then what the ******** are you reading this for?

anyway..

when i write to you guys plz write back... it really hurts when you dont... i feel like you guys dont want me to write.. so ive decided this... im not writing anymore.. at all.. im done with ppl just deleting my messages or ignoring them...

so much for real friends

please write me if you are my real friend

i understand if you are not....


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