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Captured by a sea of thought, I flowed defiantly, casted around in the violent current. All the colors blended into light, the light became The World. I surrendered solemnly, throwing myself away. Wholly yearning to reclaim the lost and that which I have not yet found.
A sudden warmth had clasped my frigid hand with tender compassion, pulling awaying from the abysmal void of light. I came to clearly see, a face of virtuous beauty. Dark rich hair encompassing the white purity of her face. A smile of cascading mirth expressed in between her lips. beauty running within beauty, I intently fixed my eyes to hers, filled with a brilliance of sapphiric radiance. Entranced I said with absolute sincerity. "your eye's are very pretty." In wonder, she gazed in to mine, eyes I believed to be of indifferent quality. Searching briefly in a flicker of eye movement, she read beyond what eyes could reveal. Soundly she replied "and your eyes are beautiful." From the glacial cold of the self, to the peak warmth that exists in the intimacy of the affection of two, transpired not in a moment of cadence but rather faded out in spiritual embrace.
 (Zen(-)Des) · Mon Sep 24, 2007 @ 08:44am · 2 Comments |
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samus(10:51:49 PM): dude i was typign somethign to someone else and it got part over here
Zen (10:52:01 PM): fufufu~ >:3
samus (10:52:19 PM): lol
samus (10:52:24 PM): btw nice song you sent me
Zen (10:52:33 PM): si :O
Zen (10:52:41 PM): I enjoy it throughly
samus (10:52:44 PM): bwahaha mister reboto!
Zen (10:52:50 PM): si >:3
Zen (10:52:53 PM): Fufufufu >:3
samus (10:53:01 PM): xD hahaha
File transfer for C:-editeditedit- =D Mr. Roboto.mp3 is complete. at 10:54:01 PM
samus (10:56:38 PM): xD OMG -listens to mr reboto-
Zen (10:56:55 PM): Feck yeah! O:<
Zen (10:57:07 PM): Freddy Mercury O; <33
samus (10:57:12 PM): xD
Zen (10:57:12 PM): we will rock you~ O:
samus (10:58:23 PM): m/
samus (10:58:27 PM): domo
samus (10:58:28 PM): domo
samus (10:58:30 PM): xD
Zen (10:58:48 PM): shinto O:
Zen (11:01:12 PM): know a good song that's 4:44 in length? O:
samus (11:01:24 PM): hmmm
samus (11:01:26 PM): i dont think so
Zen (11:07:49 PM): the boys are back in town! O:<
samus (11:07:52 PM): oh hell yeah my mom brought me how chipotles
samus (11:07:58 PM): xD ahah
Zen (11:07:59 PM): sweet O:
Zen (11:08:07 PM): me hungee =(
samus (11:08:14 PM): >] hehe i love the burritos from there and it hits the pot
samus (11:08:22 PM): =O -gives you half-
Zen (11:08:23 PM): pot eh?! D:<
Zen (11:08:33 PM): hitting the pot I see!! O8<
samus (11:09:01 PM): spot
samus (11:09:04 PM): LOL
(Zen(-)Des) · Wed Nov 15, 2006 @ 04:20am · 1 Comments |
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samus (11:46:20 PM): =ooo
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Feel free to talk to me..
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samus (12:17:19 AM): xD
Zen (12:17:50 AM): BRB
Zen (12:17:58 AM): BOOBS that are REALLY BIG
Zen (12:18:00 AM): OOO:
Zen(12:18:15 AM): not sure how I made that connection
Zen(12:18:16 AM): or why
Zen(12:18:22 AM): but it exists now
Zen (12:18:27 AM): in the infinite
samus (12:18:44 AM): xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Zen (12:18:56 AM): I think I might save that convo
Zen (12:19:06 AM): it has made the wall of fame
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Zen(12:44:46 AM): *points up* O:
samus (12:44:53 AM): O_o xD
samus (12:45:22 AM): (. )(.)
samus (12:45:25 AM): =P there
Zen (12:45:29 AM): oh man. <w<
samus (12:45:35 AM): xDD
Zen (12:45:36 AM): I can make them bigger ;D
samus (12:45:42 AM): but you said big boobs sooo
samus (12:45:57 AM): (___.___)(___.___)
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Zen (12:46:15 AM): are.. they resting on a table? o.o
samus (12:46:26 AM): xD they so big yes
(Zen(-)Des) · Mon Oct 30, 2006 @ 06:06am · 3 Comments |
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Sokina Cause. I am a woman. XP Beware, I flip my hair *flips hair* oh yeah. My ninja flips her hair too. (Zen(-)Des) doesn't affect me, I have a girlfriend. and so does my Ninja. :3 Sokina =o. Well my Ninja camps your spawn point Sokina =o. Once I kill you, and you revive, my ninja will kill you again and whore EXP (Zen(-)Des) not if I reach Nirvana. O; Sokina >< Damn you, Buddhism! Once again, you have bested me XP (Zen(-)Des) now you know why I am called Zen. ninja Sokina Gah. >< Zen Buddhism. I can't believe I didn't see that earlier. XD
(Zen(-)Des) · Mon Sep 18, 2006 @ 07:47pm · 3 Comments |
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After all this time.. I have lost. Filled with bitter anger I go alone with what is left of myself and try to finish this through to the very end. I am leaving in fragments, with an anger melting the bonds that held me together. I wish it could have gone differently.. but there is nothing more I can do except to push foward as far as I can. to make it count with last thoughts and a bleeding heart. I regret nothing and but regret everything. it burns right through me and God Damn it that I could not do something more with myself. it feels as if I have been lied to since the beginning. that I have lived in a dream that never existed. and now after that dream his shattered I am left with cherished pieces to be forgotten and discarded. just as the soldier fights, dreams, and dies for peace yet finds none after it's all over. to never escape the battlefield and die forsaken. to wonder what is it really all for? never seeing the virtue that keeps our humanity. am I so pitful as this.. is this all I can really do.. for myself.. for others. the hole in my heart that I have not been able to mend, that joy and laughter had only brought slight relief to. does it really make me more human damning it all.. to only find yourself alone again. now defeated I will stand on my own.. I have lost but I'm not finished yet, God Damn it if it will end like this..
(Zen(-)Des) · Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 09:19am · 0 Comments |
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it's been one year today.. one year since I graduated from high school.
not that I remember the day for only that, but rather a day when it seems I lost more than I won. that day I saved a child's life, I pulled him to safety before he was hit by a car.. I took the hit.. I held him tight on my arms to protect him.. from the pain.. keeping the scars away from him.. but it was a small price to pay for that child.. someone who made me care.. about myself and my friends.
that day was the last time I saw most of my friends. the people that made my life decent to say the least. the people I have played sports with, through victory and defeat.. people I helped with clubs and school projects time and time again.. people I miss dearly..
I am only left with a few things now, the fond memories of loitering after school, going out to eat at resturants, practicing for up coming games, simply hanging out and keeping each other company.. and a hope that maybe I will meet them once again.
that day, I watched as I lost a friend one by one.. some for good and others for the time being.. after our graduation I was fortunate enough to have dinner with a group of my closer friends. we ate, laughed, we stayed there for hours.. towards the end of the night I was with the people I cared for dearly.. though most I had only befriended that year or even the year before.. they were my friends.. those who added their part to my life and made it better by being there..
we finished the night by going bowling, all of us having fun one last time together. some played pool, others bowled, few were in the arcade.. making the most of the day as if it were our last good bye..
the next day I woke up.. and I remember asking myself.. "what now?" "where are we going?" "what is it that you want?" I simply said "I don't know, there's not much I want.. no where to go, to be.. "
Since than I have been alone.. going on and making it.. a quiet existance that at first didn't bother me.. but in time became cold and bitter.. something I am still trying to get out of.. slowly but surely. perhaps in the coming year I will get in to college, and be where I was happiest most.. with people.
(Zen(-)Des) · Sun Jun 11, 2006 @ 02:16am · 0 Comments |
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Tips of the Week Archive. |
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week one:
Week two: When in doubt Deny! Deny! Deny! Unless it's all caught on film. o:
Week three: If you don't succeed try again. Unless it's trying to defy gravity.
week four: two wrongs dont make a right, but 4 rights make a circle. 8D
(Zen(-)Des) · Fri May 05, 2006 @ 06:00pm · 0 Comments |
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Tazmo (Zen(-)Des) xDD I could watch that for hours.  The dancing stick man? xD
(Zen(-)Des) · Thu Apr 06, 2006 @ 07:41pm · 2 Comments |
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