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I have been going through a sudden bought with depression. It started this morning when I didnt want to wake up. I felt like I had nothing to live for. Had no reason to wake up. But then again I woke.
Right now I just want to disconnect myself from the world. I feel like they all dont like me for who I am.
My birthday is in 14 days.... and nothing seems special anymore. I dont get happy at Christmas or Easter or even my own birthdays. I would be five bucks that in some way, on my birthday, my sister will be able to bring the subject back to her.
I hate it when people do that.
Just because she graduated doesn't mean you should forget me. So far everything has been about Katie. I just want a day when it is about me. A day where I get what I want and not have to worry about what people think.
All my family does is make things worse for me. They seriously dont understand.
My dad actually said to me in these exact words.
"If you dont pass your finals your summer will be very long."
Yeah like that is suppouse to motivate me to study.
They just dont get it at all!

I know this may sound weird but mt parents embaress (SP) me in my own home when nobody is there. My mom like yells at the top of her lungs when something good happens in a football game. It sounds like goofy magnified about 1000000x. My family is very vocal about how they feel about football. *sigh*

crying gonk crying WHYYY MEEE crying gonk crying

Ok I think I am kind of scared of my friend AJ right now. Last thursday some other friends and I were going to Anime Club when AJ like comes up and steals Anna's purse (One of my friends is named Anna for the people who now my true identity). We like play around where we like fight him to get it back. Girls won of course, and then AJ puts one of my friends in a head lock. She breaks free and all the rest of my friends run into the bathroom with her. I'm staying behind because I have to leave to meet my dad in CS2 when AJ puts me in a head lock. It wasn't even around my neck it was around my cheek bones, and when he puts you in a head lock he wont let you go. So he is like about to squeeze my face till it is broken, my friends come out of the bathroom to try to get me out of it. Now im being jerked around and AJ is squeezing harder. I am so scared that he might actually break me that I start to struggle for my life. AJ squeezes harder to not let me go. I am really really scared at this point and I start to hyperventalate because of my fear. The hyperventalation triggers my asthma so now I can't even breath. I finally get myself loose of the headlock and take refuge in the nearby Girl's Bathroom. Anna comes in helps me get my inhailer and I just hang out in there for a bit crying cause I was so scared. I soon relax and exit the bathroom, luckily i had no bruses and AJ nad left. Anna and a couple of other friends escourted me to where my dad was. I didn't tell him wat happened. He still doesn't know. Now Im scared of AJ, my dad, and my sister because Aj and the headlock, my sister in trying to push me into a wall and hurting me in various ways, and my dad for..... I don't want to tell.

Ironicly its a monday and I have had a good day. My friends and I were at lunch and we were joking around. My one friend brought petzel sticks to lunch and we were pretending that they were sagars and we just laughed sooo much. We laughed even harder when my other friend crushed one, put it in a line of crumbs and made a sniffing sound. Yet another friend (I have alot of friends at lunch) had a water bottle she took a sip and then acted drunk. it was hilarious. we almost got yelled at for being too loud but i think it was because we were having too much fun.