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Ok I'm writing this the night before a major scholarship competition, probably not a good idea but what the hey. Tommorrow I have to go and compete against at least a 100 other High Schoolers for five scholarships. If this were a normal type of competition, a Quiz Bowl type thing, I would be fine. Instead I have to go and write an essay about a subject that I wont find out until I'm about to write it. Now, most of you don't know me so I'll clue you in on my essay skills, if I don't know the topic I tend to get off topic. If that wasn't stress enough, I thought my guidance counselor didn't sign my application so I went into panic mode and sat in the office for about an hour hyperventilating.

Now, part of the reason I'm so stressed is I spent all of today in Detroit for a fashion workshop. It was fun, and I really enjoyed it, but I will probably never use the information I learned. I'm not built like a supermodel, and I'm way too clumsy for runway. But at least I can count it as a culture even for my Advanced Studies Diploma....which I should probably fill out the paperwork for that.....crap...*pulls out hair*

A-C

Stress... everyone has it, and teenagers more than most. Balancing school with sports, clubs, practices, and other extra-curricular activites becomes like a full time job. Believe me, it can be hard. Recently I have come so close to an emotional breakdown that I had to stop doing everything to get my head back where it belongs. On my studies, and on graduating.

Yes, I know it sounds like I'm complaining. But honestly, how do they expect us to be perfectly rounded and not go crazy? My Psychology professor calls it "Monkey Mind" because it's as if your brain wont shut off. She also thinks I'm a walking recipe for depression so who knows.

Soooo.... I guess what it boils down to is that school is driving me up the wall, because I'm supposed to be the perfect student. Which reminds me that I have to go to tutoring. Toodles!

A-C